Bazaar at Pasir Ris

Went sch early mornin', met up with Cong Thanh at 1 to continue on our implementation n journal writin'. Finished ard 6.30pm, didn't haf time 2 go gym today. Wing left yesterday... it was pretty tiresome in the lab now. We haf this bazaar thing here ard Pasir ris interchange... kinda interesting. May haf a closer look some time later. The street's singer sang really well n i was kinda blown away... i reckon i saw him b4 at Simei... tremendous voice! Finally i got myself a mic n i was talkin' to Ade in the evenin'. Really miss talkin' 2 her n glad 2 hear tat she's doin' well in Osaka Japan. Supposed 2 meet up Selina tomorrow but i cancelled it... need 2 do some work. Sorry Selina... meet ya some other day. :)

"Cancellation" Sunday

This mornin' supposed to meet up Jiahui n Kaixian n whoever for joggin'. Due 2 some reasons... it was canceled... which i dun wanna get started wif. So i went back 2 bed ard 6.30am after readin' Hui's sms. Received smses fr Selina... 1st msg) Why i didn't reply her sms ytd? 2nd msg) Free this week? 3rd msg) Free on Thur? 4rd msg) How abt boonlay... near 2 yr sch? 5th) How abt 5pm?..... n some missed calls. I woke up several times 2 reply her smses (smthin' like "yes cool, i m fine wif it... cya soon.") n continued squirmin' back on my bed... till i finally decided to wake up. Hmm... she's sooo... longwinded. haf not seen her 4 awhile, she's an awesome friend anyway... so i luv 2 catch up wif her soon. Met up wif Jiahui at noon for awhile, he's goin' 4 his reservist tomorrow. Rehearsal was canceled too this evenin'.

Friday was fun meetin' Jiahui, JinShyang, Pat, Kaixian, Vincent, Alvin, Song, Shereen (at her grandpa's wake), etc. I'll cherish the remainin' moments wif them b4 i fly back to Aust in future. I'll never forget...

met Bryan n Wing

Yesterday met up wif Bryan in the late evenin' at fisherman's village. We had a gd time chattin'... so much 2 catch up... he's such a nice person. We were also talkin' abt galsss... yeah men's favorite topic!! We discussed abt our perception on relationship n marriage. He doesn't like the idea of gettin' married too early n doesn't mind changin' gf (though he is currently attached)... n he stoutly goes 4 look. Conversely, i dun like changin' gf n i m more toward this 'once n forever' supposition. I luv gettin' married too if i do luv her... n if i've no feelin' towards her i wun even wanna get together wif her. Bryan was havin' this adverse reaction "Wat? Why not?? Jus 4 fun... I think ya take it too seriously... n ya r younger than me n y wld ya wanna settle down??? I advised him to be loyal 2 his current gf... cherish wat ya haf ppl...!! But he really luv his current gf i know... i know him... he's nice. I told her abt the gal i like, which we named it as "G3" which means "Guai guai gal". She is super nerdy n guai, n she is kind-hearted. She gave me the burnin' sensation whenever i see her. I know i really like her. But i dun think i'll ever get her... as she is too guai. :P

Today i reached uni at abt 12pm. Was busy configurin' my new phone (Dopod C730), tryin' to connect 2 NTU n NIE through wireless. At abt 3pm Wing n I headed to the uni gym. Tats Wing in the pic. :) We r kinda gettin' stronger, carryin' heavier weight each time. Took a shower n went 4 our sushi aaagainnnn... our 1023212593 times havin' sushi together.... haha. Wing is leaving next week to Beijing Microsoft for work attachment, hope he'll like it.

Happy joggers

This mornin' woke up at 6.15am, met up wif Daniel n Kaixian 4 mornin' jog. We ran ard the beach (Pasir Ris), gd day... i luv the both of them! Had breakfast wif Daniel after, n went back hm ard 10.00. Gonna practise my piano for performance today. Yesterday's rehearsal i was quite ghastly. Again Chris was tellin' me off..."Jimmy did ya practise enough at hm?" Again i gotta remind him tat i'm not pro like the rest of them. :) But wat to do... Chris is my idol... i'll work harder. :P

Went Vivocity at Harborfront wif Wing yesterday noon. I bought my Dopod C730 there (without contract for $798 after usin' up my $100 voucher). My credit card bill will be above $3000 this month... i better find out where is the highest success rate on robbery in Singapore.

Flight booked to Texas US

Yesterday went buffet lunch at Simei with mps friends (JinShyang, Jiahui, Kaixian, Yinghui, Shereen, Pat, ...). Enjoyed myself...hadn't seen them for a while, i miss everyone of them. We proposed some actitivies like bbq, weekly jog, volley, etc. Everyone seems pretty stressed this time round.

Went PC show after with Jiahui and Hendrik. It was soo damn crowded tat we gotta squeeze like wedges into a tight space. I saw the IBM X60, core 2 duo, window vista biz...etc. I was droolin'...n i asked my two buddies if i should trade in my current IBM T60, less than a year old, for $1200 n pay another $1800 for X60. But think abt it, I can't catch up with technology, so maybe i should be more rational n stick on wif my lovely T60. I need a mobile phone more than a laptop...i lost my mobile phone (tats y no pic in my blog now), gonna pay $800+ for my new mobile phone soon.

This mornin', booked airfare with Alex (the ASTAR scholar), we r flyin' to Texas US in Sept for ICIP conference presentation. It costs $1974 each exclusive of hotel, n the credit card OCBC staff called me twice to reconfirm if I made this transaction. It seems tat i haf spent too much $$ these days...i can't believe it too. I spent more than I earned...haha. :P And we r still plannin' on other trips, Bangkok wif CY, Penang wif Beeling, etc. Can someone pls ban me fr the airport!!! One step into the terminal n i'll be executed. :P

MPS was quick today, we finished around 11pm. Shyang didn't come n Jiahui left at 10. I still can't sleep yet, gotta prepare for rehearsal tomorrow. I hope Chris will be mercy wif me when i play the piano, haf not been practisin' lately.

Exam results out!

I m back home finally last nite, lyin' on my cosy bed. Checked my flooded emails.... exam results were out n thanks God i did pretty well wif straight 'As'. I felt so tired tat i didn't wanna unpack my luggages n stuffs, not even today... keep on procrastinatin'. I lost my mobile phone last week... still decidin' which model to get... should i get a WIFI phone? Probably the new Dopod C730. I miss my piano, had not seen her for a while. I gonna spend more time wif her today. :) My dear friend Hon had a car accident recently, hurtin' one of the pedestrians. I m tryin' my best n askin' my family to help him wif the case. I hope he'll be fine.

I wanna contact Ade in Japan, but i dun haf her contact. I m goin' Tokyo in few months time, maybe can stop by in Osaka this time round to visit her. Finally i wanna continue my bloggin' after stopped for months. Goin' back uni on Monday. I wanna start workin' out too, which I've been doin' so recently... gonna stay healthy n happy! :)

Went out wif Hendrik to Orchard n PS.... we had sushi! We went to Yamaha 2 find some piano scores n we played some songs on the display piano. Awesome day!

Hooray...paper got accepted!

Yeah i know i've temporary stopped blogging, but I m jus so jolly now tat i reckon i should note it down... this blog is like my diary. This morning i woke up n checked my email, my paper on IEEE International conference IP got accepted. I'm going San Antonio, Texas (US) in Sept for presentation. I didn't expect it as I thought it was cheesy due to time rush. Bcos of writing this paper months ago, i lost smthing. Here is alittle consolation 4 me, thanks!

难过 composed by Chris n myself

Took us quite a while to finish it, still havin' some minor changes. Performing at OCC, my chinese suxs (illiterate)... hope yr wld like it though. This song has many high notes, Chris wanna kill me... thanks Chris, he's really pro n i've learnt alot fr him. :)

Recommended by Zhangli (forever love)

Zhangli played this song wif her Er hu. I tried wif my violin 2... ha, but gotta get more familiar wif this song 1st. Er hu is fun after tryin'! :P

New Year resolutions:
1) My family (includin' grandma) havin' excellent health.
2) Doin' well 4 my studies (like how i got my 1st class honor & eq).
3) 随然我们已分开，我也希望你能过得很好，永远快乐。

99 stalks of roses for her (my gd friend)

As mentioned I never gonna blog 4 d time bein', but jus wanna record a few things down. I jus went online to buy 99 stalks of roses for her, a friend who i wanna thank her 4 being with me all these while, helping me wif lotsa stuffs. I really cherish this friendship we haf. Ya told me ya wun be gettin' any flowers 4 this valentine's day most probably, n ya were wrong, i got ya some... hehe. :) I dun wanna reveal who ya r... jus wait 4 the delivery 2 get 2 ya (provided i didn't rem yr address wrongly... :P). Get a bf next yr bcos i'm not gonna 2 get it 4 ya again next yr... very ex!!! :P Again thank ya 4 yr help, n ya always say ya r my manager, thanks :) n enjoy yrself!!

ZhangLi, tat gal who played Er hu at the performance wif me, she is teachin' me Er hu. Wow... frankily speakin' i didn't like this instrument till recently. I know abt piano n violin, but nothin' abt Er hu. She played it so well... tat blew me away.

My last blog...

Today went 2 sch, saw Xing n he was askin' abt me. I replied not 2 gd... lotsa things happened n also busy with rehearsal lately.

Tomorrow is my 3rd rehearsal. I've been practising very hard these days so i reckon shouldn't be a problem, Chris (the program manager) was nice to me too last week. Sharon is picking me up tomorrow.... so sweet of her. Sharon, 22, nus grad, getting prettier tomorrow... anyone interested? Haha... :)

I think i won't be blogging anymore, or at least for quite a while. Very tired n moody lately. And I fell into the drain last weekend, wondering wat i was dreaming abt...hahaaa. I'll be goin' back Aust after CNY. I'll take gd care of myself i promise. Yr guys take care 2, be gd! Wanna attach these phases fr this song which i'll be performing.

我想你表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

CY fallin' in luv

Cldn't get anymore ticket, so i invited CY to my place n i performed it jus 4 him yesterday. He gave a "Wow" drooling response after my performance... he said "I m seriously fallin' in luv wif ya"... hahaa. Daniel n Jaslyn wanted 2 come too... oh nooo... :P Went 4 sushi, n then satay at the beach resort near my hse... gd day! :)

2nd rehearsal...thanks Chris

Today I was almost late 4 the rehearsal but Sharon picked me up, thanks. I was really bewildered when the program manager Chris announced 2 everyone tat the tickets haf all been sold out. I still shortage of 2 for Xue n CY... where can i get more tickets? :(

Today we haf quite some changes, i've 2 songs "Wei Yi" and "An Jing". Huanghuan (the violin performer) she will team with me playing the violin 4 Wei Yi while i sing n piano. N now my sequence has been changed too, i'll not be performing the 2 songs at one go, haf been divided into two. Wei Yi at the later... almost at the end. Chris said i was gd today... he said he hopes i can perform for other events too... he took my mobile nos. He had mistaken Sharon as my gf. Then i explained n he said "Not yr gf? I saw her like in tears when ya were performing"...hahhaaaa. Hahahaa....maybe my singing was too horrible. :P I like the lyrics An Jing. :( Jus now i kept lookin' down the stage... hallucinating Cherry was there. I rem i told her i wanted to play this song for her... but jus no chance. I rem she even sang this song 2 me once. Flyin' 2 Aust after CNY. :)

Sorry Sharon

Sharon was angry wif me on the phone jus now bcos i went drinkin' again, with CY. She said "I m workin' hard on yr singing n ya r here damaging yr voice wif alcohol again n again". Sorry Sharon but i really need a break. Tmr is the 2nd rehearsal n trust me i can do it. CY asked me y i dun get a new gf... n he's another one having bad comment abt her n consoling me not to be upset on *****. I told him i can't luv or change someone easily, its not like changing clothes. I think i did not really like Cherry either. I still wan her to be happy n i know she is, n enjoying herself with him. I know he can take gd care of her so i m not worried anymore.

My sch work is fine too, my Prof jus complimented me on Tue 4 my gd work... n recently not tat busy, the next conf paper due is on April. Now i m more worried abt the rehearsal thing, the sissy program manager liked to pick on my chn. This morning msg Desmond to ask him abt some chinese words tat i didn't understand. Thank everyone who is helping me. Again sorry Sharon, n if ya r not free dun haf 2 come over tmr morning. Drive carefully!!!

是否一颗星星变了心，从前的原望也全都被抛弃

This morning Sharon came 2 my place for chn class. Her Eng n Chn both got A for high sch... she volunteered 2 help me. I like this phase in the lyrics "是否一颗星星变了心，从前的原望也全都被抛弃。最近我无法呼吸，连自己的影子都想逃避". Sharon commented the piano part i was fine, singing my voice, speed, etc. were ok too, jus tat my pronouncation needed to improve. Booked an air ticket to Sydney.

1st day of rehearsal...fun!!!

At 4pm met up my fyp students 2 discuss their projects. Took too much time n it ended at 6pm+... my rehearsal at 7.30 n i gotta take my dinner too... so rush.

The rehearsal was fun, the program manager was alittle sissy.... hahahaa. :P I doubt he's straight. I cldn't stop laughin' when he said this "Jimmy.... slower". Haha... no, he pronounced the slower as "sloooooooweeerrr". :P N he exclaimed "Your chinese cannot make it lah ya this banana"... hahhaa. :P:P The other performers did really well, one with this chn instrument Er Hu... but come on, they r pro. I m the only one not pro, i m a student, not musician!!! Can't rem the chn lyrics... he told me jus sing one song, the rest jus play n dun sing bcos i may mix those lyrics up. Nvm this is only the 1st rehearsal, still got 5 more. I'll work hard.

Vulnerable love

Went out with Dan to drink till 3am. Was alittle disappointed n wat upset me most was tat she betrayed me, n jus found someone to replace me in less than a week or so while i was busy, without feelin' anything at all. Isn't tat amazin'? I wondered how vulnerable luv can be. I dun blame her, we r still friends. I m at fault too, was too busy wif paper (ICIP conf paper) n neglected her for a week. I think i dun really like her too anyway, she's not suitable for me.

Dan said "I told ya abt her long ago, ya didn't listen. Now ya can believe me n conclude tat she's those china gal".

Xue said "She's not worth, so cheap. I warned ya abt chinese gal, ya didn't listen."

Sharon said some vulgarity...."*censored* bitch, ya r lucky she left ya early. Come on ya r goin' 2 be a professor soon, dun get moody bcos of tat bitch, ya should continue to work hard on yr studies."

I feel alittle upset n tats apparent, i m human... i've feeling. Been with her for quite awhile... but i m still happy for her... cheers! :) Got a performance tat i m playing some songs, n one of these songs i learned it for her... thought she cld be there but she said no yesterday. During the rehearsal the planner said i cld even sing if i wan. But must go through quite a few rehearsals as usual, its not a trival event... must be well prepared. Thanks God there'll be someone to help me with the chinese words including pronouncation.

She found a new bf in a week...gd 4 her n me! :)

She found a new bf. I feel alittle disappointed... dun feel like doin' anythin' today, but on the other hand happy for her. I wan her to be happy too n now she is. It was my fault for neglecting her for a week... or maybe we didn't even like each other. Its fast... she found one in a week. :) Whoever ya r, be gd 2 her k? I think we dun suit each other too... its gd to end this way. :) I still treat her as a friend but i doubt she treats me as one too, she deleted all my contacts (msn, friendster, etc.). See how one can change so fast! Luv is really sooo... meaningless. I believe i'll find the right gal one day... one tat i really like. Gd day mate!! :P

rAinY sat

Today went to sch... for no reason, jus walked ard in sch. Went Canteen 2, Nanyang house, then to the pond at hall 6, n lastly hall 8/9... n it started raining. Jus wanna take a little break 2 observe the things ard me before i get busy again.

Though i'm quite depressed lately as many things happened, i should stand up again. I still have ppl ard who care abt me. Mum told me she wanna give me another credit card fr citibank, but i said no. I was so touched... she worried tat i haf not enough $$ to survive. I m old enough 2 spend my own $$... though i m very poor. And watever cards are not impt 2 me. I jus need one SMRT card for travel to sch everyday. Jus like wat Xue said, i've changed alot. i dun take cab to anywhere anymore. I eat hawker centres, foodcourts, fastfoods n canteens now. I even eat ice-cream, ice-kachang, roti-prata, chicken rice, satays, fried noodles.... watever ya cld name. Ever thought of starting a family, gettin' married with her end of this year, hmmm.... not anymore.

My sista came home with a dozen of flowers... very beautiful ones. She gave it to me and said "I bought it for ya, to pacify yr gf, very expensive... dun throw it away!!". I was overwhelmed... n i doubt where she got the flowers... did she really buy tat for me? Or some guys gave it to her?? Anyway i dun haf a gf... haha. Can i gif it to my gd friend instead? :) Thank ya alot Sista, dun worry abt me. I m wonderin' how is Cherry's toothache now. Hope she is better. :)

Gd day..n she has found someone else. :)

Today is the due date of the conf paper, haf submitted. Slept alot today... finally. Went for haircut in the afternoon, n shoppin' with parents after. Finally cld spend alittle time with my family, really busy lately, didn't sleep much too. Jus wanna take a day break n do smthing for the ppl around me.

Read her blog, glad tat she has found someone more suitable for her n she's happy now. As usual, nothin' mentioned abt me in her blog... jus kiddin' i dun care. Maybe she doesn't rem much abt me. Anyway, jus happy tat she is happy now. :) The rest is not impt anymore. Jus hope the dentist is a reliable one, for her wisdom tooth.

Song's birthday today. We got a cake n alittle chat in the evening. Gd day!

ICIP conf paper due today

Met sup lately n been changin' n changin' on the paper, esp the equations tat he wasn't satisfied on. But he got his point, its gettin' much better now. Didn't really sleep lately, writin' the paper, missin' her. Received a sms the day b4 yesterday, i was so jolly... but it was fr Ling instead, askin' if i wld be free n hangout with her. I replied no... really haf no mood to go anywhere. Pat called yesterday, a friend of her (fr china) coming to Singapore for CNY piano performance, at DTE and one of the ball dinner. I m invited to the dinner, n Pat is plannin' me to perform too, jus for 1 or 2 songs. She said "Jus a casual dinner, its ok to make mistake". Wat she means? :( Haha...!!! But really no time to practise, I rem Alex asked me to play for him too during his wedding... he wanna save $$. Goin' for haircut today, booked an appointment.

安静的夜晚

忙了几天，终于把paper给写完了。在这也不到半年就以写了两张paper, 朋友们都很envy我。可是没人知道我有多么的不好受。母亲还在生我气，女友也不理我了，自己也病的不轻。朋友Desmond见到我一至在吃药，也叫我好好保重。我希望她能找回她真正爱的人，也希望他会比我还要爱你。我真的愿意做那个祝福你们的人。我也不会再烦你了。Xue打电话给我，她说"If ya really luv her, ya should set her free." Sharon在msn也说她说的很对。我会永远记得你那凶巴巴的样子，和那个吃apple pie的cheeky样子的。你要好好保重。

回到了家，还有我的钢琴陪我度过了这寂寞的晚上。弹的这首安静，我终于明白它的意思了。真的好累，还没读明天的lecture notes呢。我的华语越来越好了，朋友也这么说，你说是吗？

Sorry for those friends tat can’t read Chinese…in fact most of my friends can’t read Chinese...pardon me. Jus wanna polish up my Chinese alittle. Take care everyone!

Finished with ICIP conf paper...hooray!!

Jus finished my ICIP conf paper in 5 mins ago....finaaaalllyyy!! Its not only abt writing, still gotta write codings n generate results to put in paper...tough!!! Got a demo to undergrads n postgrads at 4pm. Gotta prepare now...

Jesse gettin' married...wow wow

One of my best friends Jesse (fr America, Seattle) is plannin' to get married.... wow. I m soooo... happy for him. I wish to get married too, with someone who really likes me. We always talked abt gals back in Aust. He read my blog too.... he exclaimed "Ya know chinese gal, rem my ex PJ?" Yeah i rem he had serious problem with his ex PJ, a chinese gal. He invited me n Cherry to his wedding. His current gf is a Japanese n they r both in Tokyo. Hadn't chatted with him for ages, we chatted for awhile jus now... we miss those days... we went gym, jog, yoga, bbq, beach, sauna, buffetsssss..., hiking, etc etc..!!! WHY am i soooo STRESSED now in Singapore??? :(

Rushin' for paper

Woke up really early, rushin' for my paper. Gotta show Sup tomorrow. Xue called me jus now 2 ask if i've recovered fr my flu n fever. Thanks Xue. While takin' break, I clicked on Cherry's blog... readin' her previous blog's entries... mentioned abt him so often, tat was so sweet of her.... she wrote alot abt her ex... can see how much she luv him, envy him so much. I wish to find someone i really like too, tat i wanna spend my life with.... she has not existed yet. :)



Back 2 work, hope everyone will find the one she/he luv n enjoy yr Valentines day. :) Cherish wat ya haf!!

bad day!!

Sista is back Singapore, glad 2 see her but hardly haf a chance 2 chat with her yet. Reached hm at 12am+ last nite after visiting Miss Cherry till 10. She was sick... n also i got her an apple pie. Had a minor argument with my mum this morning. I was askin' if i cld be released earlier during Chinese new yr, like 1pm... not visiting the rest of our relatives n friends. She questioned "I thought ya always wanna visit them when ya were in Aust?? Its jus an once a yr event... how cld ya.... etc etc...". On the other hand, Miss Cherry asserted "Last time i also met up with my ex durin chn new yr.... wasn't with family.... etc". I dunno wat to do, really vexed!!!!

Spent the entire day doing my work, ICIP conf paper due in less than a week. Mon gotta show to sup, n Tue got another demo 2 some undergrad, postgrad students n sup. Miss Cherry wasn't happy tat i cldn't accompany her today. She exclaimed "I feel like i m not having a bf, can't even acc me during the weekend...., my ex acc me no matter how busy he was... etc". I was really hurt, n i really dunno wat to do. I proposed meeting her for dinner or meeting her tomorrow at her hostel to do my work... but she didn't like tat idea, she wanna do wat she wan. I like to go holiday, go movies, go shoppings, skating, cycling, swimming, .... too. But i gotta be rational, i need to work hard too, i dun wish to be dismissed fr sch next Sem. Why can't she be more understanding!?! :( I know i m not as gd as her ex, and she doesn't like me as much as him too. I'll be replaced one day as wat Xue had warned me abt. Did she ever get me an apple pie jus 4 me? Did she ever write abt me in her blog? Did she ever drop me a get well msg when i was sick, or acc/visit me?? Did she ever think of comin' nearby my hse 2 meet me for a while when i was busy??? She jus care abt herself!!

Last day of MMM conf

Today reached sch at 8.40... finished at 3pm.... needed to help out in loading n unloading all the items. This gal in the pic was one of the presenters, fr Tsinghua Uni, Beijing China, doing her phd. We were the AV helpers so gotta help her set up everything. Quite a number of guys wanna know her, one of the prettiest in the conf... haha. My this friend besides her got her email... silly. :)



Feelin' sleepy...still got class this evening till 9.30. :(

SiCk !!!

Sick since yesterday... comes with flu, a little fever, sore throat... feelin' terrible. Didn't haf enough sleep lately, slept at around 1am n woke up at 5am, bcos of the conf at ntu which i m helpin' up. I reached Orchard Parade hotel at 7am today, to pick up the conf guests. Then usually at nite still gotta go for classes till 9.30pm. Yesterday brought an apple pie to Cherry's hostel for her which i promised... see how crappy she looked...!!! :)


This morning n afternoon i was soo sick n sleepy... didn't even wanna go lunch. Nothin' i cld do but slept in the lab.... n apparently cldn't really sleep well in tat environment. I felt so pathetic out of sudden... feelin' soooo forlorn. Thanks Xue for callin' me.

Conference at NEC


Today we got a cruise dinner, kinda farewell dinner for the guests. Enjoyed it but i was not feeling well, didn't eat tat much.

Sad day

Cherry is in our sch's newspaper today... Title "NTU dancers get into the groove of a winning beat". Cldn't recognise her... but i cld recognise her costume. :) Met her for lunch n dinner.

Haf problem implementing Bayesian network... asked two of my best friends in lab. Didn't expect Wing to utter "If i tell ya how to add the nodes, then it'll be meaningless for ya to do.... ya wan me to write the code for ya? Huangyi also seems like she wans me to write the code for her". I felt it was brutal n harsh fr these ironic words. Wat hurts me most is this coming fr one of my best friends. Was really upset.

Tmr is the MMM conf. Gonna wake up at 5.00... must reach uni at 8.... turnin' in soon.

last day of sch holiday

Last nite i slept at 3am+, workin' on the conf paper. Didn't see her online the whole nite... so i msged her wonderin' wat she was busy with... she knew i was back hm etc. I woke up around 9 today, not sure if i should go to uni as i was tired n i cld do it at hm... not necessary need 2 go sch. But i still wanna go as i got work to do. Not long after, i received a furious sms fr her... "YA THINK I M YR MAID, SHOULD I WAIT N STANDBY FOR YA EVERYTIME... I CAN'T DO MY OWN THINGS?....etc etc." I didn't know my one unmalicious msg last nite cld incur this, i m sorry. The unruly n sassy her jus reminds me of the chinese lady at the dinner buffet yesterday. I really feel very disappointed... :( I think lotsa Chineses (as fr China) are like this. :P

Steamboat's day

Had quick family dinner, then went to join my uni's friends for steamboat's buffet at Kallang. Really enjoyed it alot with them. They r all my favorite people in lab (Huangyi, Wing, Desmond, Jiaming, Ziming). After dinner, we walked around the red light districts in Singapore... we were blown away by those gals.... we all agree tat many of them were so pretty n in gd shape.... wat a pity! Financial woes could hamper one fr livin' the life they wan... i believe many of them haf no choice, at wit's end.

Long day...

Today reached uni at 8.20am. MMM conference's briefing started at 9 at NEC. This year this international conference is held at NTU and i m one of the event's helpers. Next week is the actual event n i gotta help up in usher, AV assistant, hotel guide (7.15 at Orchard Parade hotel) etc etc...plunging through the busy days! This is the t-shirt we'll all be wearing. The briefing ended around 12 noon.

Desmond bought me some biscuits from Hongkong n Yi bought me a cute little comb fr Shanghai. We were eating n chatting happily in the lab. I wanna ask Cherry to join us but i called her twice n she didn't pick up my calls. She msged me later she was watching tv. I thought she was busy maybe with her Arcade friends or so, bcos i msged her again tat i had finished with my briefing etc... n there wasn't any reply. She uttered tat she thought i was busy. Wondering why she hardly call or msg me. :( ...i really dunno when she wld be free. Caught Yi sleeping in the lab...with a piggy besides her. Does it look like her? :)








Met up with a friend later after i left uni, catching up... reached home at 1.20am. Tiring... goin' 2 bed now.

IMPT: ICIP PAPER DUE VERY SOON... GOTTA SLAP MYSELF N FINISHES IT!!!!!

Thur 4/1/2007

Today saw my ex-gf's pic (the one in pink), we r still gd friends now. Chatted with her 2 weeks ago, she's coming back from US this week she mentioned... if i rem correctly. Congrat she won the Miss Singapore international last year. Ha...she said she did still read my blog...hope i didn't bore ya wif my mushy words... haha. :) Yeah hangout with ya one day... enjoy yrself.

Today supposed to go help Sharon, but msged her last nite i cldn't make it, got smthing on. Sorry Sharon. I tried 2 contact David 2 help ya but his phone was engaged, pardon me. Yeah rushin' for paper lately... due in 2 weeks time. Tats an international conf in NTU comin' up, gotta help up too... quite a massive event, lotsa ppl fr oversea. Sch starts next week... work hard everyone. :)

Gd day!

Today Yi is back to lab, really jolly to see her n Wing again. Tomorrow Desmond will be back too n the four of us will be united :) Had lunch with Cherry, dinner with Yi n Wing, Gd day!

Anna msg me jus now, showed me her slumber party's pics
http://community.webshots.com/album/556737140snmUqE, really cool. I realised i didn't say bye b4 i logout n she was still askin' if i was ard.... sorry. :) Sharon msged me n asked if i cld help her look at (fix) her computer tomorrow at her place. She said she can cook lunch or dinner for me too... hehe, so nice of her. Hmm.... why everyone can cook besides me?!? :( So sleepy now...

Does she miss me? Haha

Today since i woke up, i wanted to msg her, but i didn't. I wonder if she ever did miss me alittle. She gave this keychain 2 me durin' xmas. I hope she is doin' fine now. I m alittle bored but i think i m happy even without her... dun really haf the feelin' for her... think this is not luv. Nvm i'll try n see.

Today gonna go sch, haf some work 2 do. Jus dun feel like goin'... used to rot at home now. :(

Another angry woman

Jus now my Xuehui msged me in msn 'happy new yr' n we chatted. Had not chatted with her for quite awhile. I told her i was moody abt my relationship tat happened yesterday. She was angry too, she wrote "Can't believe ya got me replaced so easily...n i've not...etc etc...!" I was bewildered.... "Wat? We broke up like 1.5-2 yrs ago!!" I dunno wat happened, seems like everyone angry with me lately, my luck is down. :( Sharon... i m sorry i didn't go to yr place yesterday bcos i wasn't feeling well. Doris sorry.... i didn't meet ya up for lunch today bcos i was rotting at home in case ya got angry 2. I read Cherry's blog n she claimed tat i gave up my own happiness. Why wld someone be so stupid? I jus feel tat this happiness doesn't belong to me... hahahaa. I reckon i dun like her too... i'll find someone i really like one day. I do miss her alittle, but i think as a friend only... she's not the one for me.

Another gloomy day!

As usual today i didn't feel like doin' anythin', goin' anywhere. I slept... woke up, n got back 2 sleep... jus didn't wanna wake up... till 2pm. In bet i received a call fr Yolanda, and my best friend Gaetan who called me fr Australia. Was soo... touched, i miss him sooo much. I told him abt my crisis... etc... felt like cryin' out to him. He encouraged me to come back to Aust too, Tudo will be going back too from Paris. Gaetan will be coming over Singapore again for 1 or 2 days in July. Went to airport 2 pick up Yi who was flying back fr Shanghai. So happy 2 see her again.

Today is the first day she never give me any msg or call. Her profile is set to single. I dun feel sad at all, i dunno why... this is not luv i guess. I'm not the one ya reckon ya can spend the rest of yr life with... n i think ya r not the one too. :) I decided not 2 think abt it now till i get better. Sharon, thanks for yr invitation. We r not coming 2 yr place tomorrow, i m not feeling well. Thank ya alot, ya take care too.

Addin' more on my depression

I dunno wat to say... everythin' i said cld caused myself into deeper interrogation. I was already in depression these days n now i got even worse... why can't she treat me better... cheering me up for this crisis period? :( I tried hard to like n be with her, n tried to see her each day, until today we met... but she was jus so emotional. Yesterday she was a kind n today she's diff.

Saw Sharon online tonite n i was jus seekin' advise fr her. She believes tat she doesn't trust n luv me tat much as i thought. N the next moment Cherry was suspecting tats something between me and Sharon. The "trust" word tat Sharon mentioned jus striked my mind immediately. I m tired...

Wanted to go up to her hostel to look for her today but her Arcade guys were in her room playing games since noon. Went up for awhile at 9 when her Arcade friends went out for dinner break. Reached home at 11.30.

Thanks Sharon

Today i woke up, there were another 3 emails received from Sharon... i was sooooo touched, thank ya so much Sharon 4 doing all these for me. Yesterday morning, Sharon told me she wanna cheer me up by sending me a joke at least every 3 hours. I thought she was kidding, but even in the middle of the night (1.56, 4.08, 7.35) i received emails from her. The most amazing thing she did was among all the jokes she sent, there were two tat she recorded it herself (with her own voice). It wasn't really clear as i cldn't figure out wat she was talkin' abt sometimes, but i still smile... was so touched... almost in tears. :) Abt the weekend beach hangout, i m not sure yet as it rains everyday, n i jus feel like staying indoor n sleep... dun wish 2 go anywhere outdoor. Lets see :) Ya take care 2 Sharon.

Gonna rush to sch soon. Wing is back Singapore n i supposed to meet him yesterday in sch but i didn't wanna step out of the hse. Ok i guess i gotta go sch to meet him today.

Yesterday n Today

Blog's site was down for the whole day... finally now its up. Went 2 sch yesterday, then met up with Cherry at the bus stop n acc her 2 immigration 2 do some stuffs. We went bugis 2 catch a movie. I wasn't in a mood 2 shop or watch movie n i hope i didn't bore her. Smthin' interestin happened, there was this man i guess a wedding planner, he approached us n asked when we would wanna get married. :) Tat made me laughed... I sent Cherry back to Boonlay n then returned 2 Pasir Ris. When she left, i was down again... :) Was touched when she ran back on the train 2 look 4 me.

Wing is back to Singapore today n supposed to meet him. I dun feel like goin' anywhere lately so i didn't go to sch today to meet him. A friend asked me out in the afternoon but i didn't go... I slept the whole day, lyin' on the bed, doin' nothin', i felt soooo... tired. I still wanna sleep... dun wanna wake up!!! Thanks to those who msg or called me 2 comfort me... i m very touched. Thank ya very much (Desmond, Wing, Jessica, Alex, Hendrik, Cherry, Sharon etc.)! Sharon thank ya for doin' so much, i greatly appreciate it, cya soon! :)

Depression!!

Didn't do quite well for my last Sem, got a warning by sch n sup. Tat means next Sem i gotta do better if not i gotta go. Rem my transcripts were only filled with Distinction n HD....wondering why i can't get an overall B+ now. I lost my confidence, i lost myself... n i dun wanna get more stressed up next Sem. My mum encouraged me to quit n go back Aust... wat should i do?!?

Wanted so much to talk to someone, but jus noone. Cherry wasn't free, was meetin' her friend for movies. She enjoyed it so much... her blog entry is all about him, n she wishes to go Paris with him too. I m not blaming her at all but i jus naturally got unhappy, n added into my depression. Or am i supposed to be happy? I jus wan her to be happy anyway. She got more than 10 suitors.... haha... i got mine too. Nvm will jus try harder with her n see how it goes... maybe we r not meant for each other... i still dun think i really like her.

Sup supposed to meet me at 1, but he dropped me an email at 12.54 to change the time. I was already outside his office waiting till 1.25 n i came up n saw his email. Wat a bad day!!

Try to cheer her up!

Yesterday i was still angry with her, today i msg n called her trying to pacify her. This mornin' i sat at my piano again n started practisin' the chn song i learned for her. The last time i played the song was terrible, mostly out of keys n so. Only today i dare to call her n played the song for her. I was jus tryin' to cheer her up.

Yeah she was at fault, but I was in the wrong too for saying words like "i give up" n etc. due to anger. I hope she realised her mistake too. I m sorry. Maybe we should jus be friends. :)

My cousin came to my place today, which i gotta babysit him alone in the afternoon. His mum needs to do some work n asked me for help. He's sooo adorable. I wanna buy him a xmas's present later. :)

Missing her?

Though i m still angry with her, i can't help to miss her alittle. I rem the pretty face of her when she was combing her hair in the dim room yesterday... haha... I rem everything but tat doesn't mean i like her. Missin' someone doesn't mean ya like her. I think i miss her as a friend only. But i really can't stand the way she is, the fierce, sassy n selfish char of her's. I was soo pissed off n i walked off yesterday morning. She didn't bother anyway. I got her sms today n we were still arguing. N why must i always be the one to give in to her everytime?!?! She changed the time to meet yesterday n decided to acc her friend fr 3pm+ to 8pm+. N i gotta wait for her for almost 3 hrs n i still gotta say sorry n took it as my fault. She slept whenever she wanted on our xmas eve despite watever plan we/I had made. She's those tat will jus do watever she wans... n never cares abt anyone's feeling. Since our first day together till now, i still doubt she really luv me. She isn't sure herself too. Yes i know i dun like her but i did try to like her.

Waken up fr my dream

Today we (Cherry n I) exchanged xmas's gift. She got me a self-made keychain with my name on it. I quite like it. I had dinner with her n i was starving...actually my lunch.

I casually asked her today if she luv me. She didn't ans me again as she wasn't sure. Why is it so difficult to say ya luv someone if ya do luv him, unless ya dun? Actually I dun really care n I gotta accept this fact n move on. :) Anyway i dun think i like her too... dun really haf tat feel. I've a wonderful holiday being with her. Sch starts really soon n its time for me to wake up n work hard. I know Cherry still miss her ex-bf. I hope they can get back together soon, the couple tat really in luv with each other. I don't blame her... she's not the one for me too i guess. :)

Wat haf i done today...

As usual i spent most of my time dreaming (abt someone? Or smthin' else??), which has taken up 70% of my time. Another 10% on transport and meals, n the other 20% doing something useful. Cherry msged me tat she was missing me alot today... tat brightened up my day alittle... haha. :) I dun mean i like her doin' tat, but jus find it funny n happy tat someone actually miss me. :P

Date with Cherry

Met up with Cherry in the afternoon. I was an hr early but i didn't wanna wake her up so i waited for an hr. I enjoyed my day with her... we went shopping around aimlessly, walked the entire shoppin' mall till she felt tired... haha (now ya know how weak she is :P). I sent her back to hostel and she somehow cried bcos she was thinking of her ex-bf. I felt awkward too tat she cried.... missing somebody else. I hope she enjoyed her day too with me. I still find her weird!! :P

Had alittle flu n fever i reckon, my eyes were red too... i didn't bother abt it when i was with Cherry, until i was at the bus-stop back home... i could feel it. N i was soooo... tired tat i fell a sleep not long after back home.

Busy day with my swollen eye

Today i woke up with a swollen eye. It looked sooo... appalling that i didn't wanna step out of the door. :P But we had an appointment with the lawyer so i gotta go, with my shades on. It's still pretty bad now... tomorrow i m meeting Cherry, hope I'll not freak her out with the ugly lookin' me!!! :( Went Uncle Cafu's place after n we had dinner together, home at 8.30pm.

I bought a Xmas's gift for Cherry today, not sure if i should pass her tomorrow or on xmas... but its a little heavy. Today i got a virtual kiss from Cherry (sms).... weird!!! I dunno if i really like her but i m happy tat i've someone as a companion in uni...we r jus tryin'. Haha..

Today Wed 20th Dec

Today gonna meet family's lawyer with mum in the late morning to do some stuffs, followed by meeting Uncle Cafu and family etc. for dinner. I haven't got a xmas present for Cherry yet, so lazy. :) N Cherry if ya read this, ya dun have to buy anything for me. :P

The pic on the right shows Cherry dancing with her mates. :) Cherry in pink...guess the venue should be NTU as usual. :)

Got myself a wife? WEIRD

Today supposed to meet Cherry but i didn't turn up bcos of some misunderstandings. I m sorry anyway... long story. And she is sick now... most probably bcos of the bad weather lately. She took some medicines n i hope she'll get better later. I've flu too.. .hope we both will get well before xmas eve.

We planned to celebrate xmas together since like weeks ago. Today i asked if she wld like to celebrate with her friends instead. I was worried tat she wld get bored celebrating with me alone. She thought i got other plan in mind or celebrating with someone else etc. Then we came out with a plan having a camp. :P So fun, thank ya Cherry.

I felt alittle weird when she somehow admitted she was my wife jus now... hmm... i dun think i really like her... dun haf the feel, but i can try perhaps, she's very nice to me.

Gd evenin'

Met Mr Cipolla's daughter last nite. Was blown away by her everything. She was gorgeous, elegant and had this intellectual and polite way of speaking. Gals like her esp at her age (20 yrs old) are usually arrogant and sassy but she jus minus off these. We chatted like most of the time since her dad was busy with his friends around. I intro her to some ppl around. She can play violin too....she really reminds me of an Aussie friend. I thought my french friend (yeah ya...Gaetan) wld really like her too and I shall intro her to him one of these days. :P

As usual ppl like to target me for questions...almost every occasion. "Wow...how did ya get yr scholarship?....", "Why did ya choose Singapore?....", "Where r ya goin' next...?!!"...., "Any girlfriend?"...etc etc etc... I've ans these 92833292303582355822129 times!!! :)

Sunday @uni

Slept at 2am+ in the morning, woke up at 6 to pick up the Empress (mummy) fr the Airport. :P Reached uni very early...9am+ on a beautiful Sunday. :) Sleepy me....zzz...

Been in uni throughout my weekend, wun wanna come back anymore fr tomorrow till next week since my sup will not around.

Goin' for welcome party tonite, haf 2 dress formally...!!!! Who r the guests??!!??? Hope they r not too dull... or keep askin' me dumb ques!!! I loathe to be questioned like being interrogated.

Delusional disorder

This mornin' i woke up, i saw a long golden strand of hair besides me tat doesn't belong to me. :P Where did it come fr?!? Haha...psychiatrists name this as delusional disorder...ha. Jus kiddin' i'm not worried.

Cherry Cha Cha ice-cream, n she is weird

Today rushed out to do some work, and had quick dinner at Sakae sushi. Ya know wat? I saw Cherry on display... "Cherry Cha Cha ice-cream"...i cldn't stop laughin' at it. :) Not sure if she's tat sweet though... hahahaa. I find her alittle weird. I dun really know her for long, she's like keep askin' me to go oversea holiday with her, she asked "Can ya bring yr passport tmr?" Of cos i wun bring my passport n go holiday with her alone... hahaaa. I m not those guys man!!!!

Rainy day

Went Simei to pick up Cherry's dance costume n supposed to meet her for lunch, but she had with her Senior instead. :( And i cldn't see how she looks like in tat costume. The koala in the pic was a little gift i got her fr Aust... she likes it. It has been rainin' since early afternoon....bad day!!



Back 2 lab, discussed with Wing wat i could do for ICIP conf. He's such a nice guy. He's rushin' for some work b4 he goes back 2 Hongkong. And he's stayin' in the lab tonite n not gonna go back home.... hardworker!!

Meetin' wif Cherry

Met Cherry for lunch today at NTU hall 9. I was early n she was late. She cld finish a huge bowl of noodles tat really freaked me out. I wondered wat did she do 2 maintain her figure. I passed her the gift i bought fr Aust. Not sure if she likes it, she's a smilin' buddha. :) I find her weird as she kept askin' to go holiday with me. Hmm...i dun like goin' holiday with a gal unless i really like her. Or is this the chinese (as china)'s culture? Hahahaaa...

Back 2 lab, did some work. Still thinkin' how to solve some stuffs. Got an email fr Sup tat i need to help out on some conf (MMM conf 2007) event in NTU. Student helper for 4 days in Jan. It seems fun as there's a cruise dinner after. When is the last time i went to a cruise dinner? I guess 5 yrs ago. :)

Gd day MatE :P

This mornin' chatted with Cat for awhile. She's in US, n glad tat she's doin' fine there. Really miss chattin' with her. She did read my blog n still know wat was goin' on here n there with me, wat an awesome friend.

Chatted with Ade in the afternoon, didn't go anywhere today...had worn out after my trip 2 Aust. She's still the same... crazy. She uttered "I m a heart breaker n sorry if i broke yr heart...etc etc." Tat sounds crazy isn't it? :) I'm quite upset, the way she is now. Or maybe she has always been like this, jus tat i didn't see the true side of her all the while. I used to like her (tat was b4 she went to Thai). She didn't break my heart, but its wat she is now tat really break my heart into pieces. But but...no matter wat, i still hope tat she'll get better one of these days, not for me, is for God n herself. :) Be gd k Ade??

Back fr Australia

Jus back fr Perth. Chatted with Cherry online for a while. We r planning to go Langkawi in Dec, if we can get the airfares. :) She is totally into it..."lets check this out on Sunday", she said. She has this inter-sch Latin dance competition the coming weekend, sounds fun, maybe i shall go n give her some supports...lets see. Brought gifts fr Aust for most of my friends back here in Singapore, can't wait to give them out...then my job is pretty much done. :P So tired...gettin' to sleepz...

Preparing 4 Aust trip

Ok flyin' to Aust tomorrow, gonna get prepared!!

Fun weekend

Today went lunch with Anna, back to Expo again. We went IT show (yes i went yesterday), and she wanna get a digital camera. Anna is such a nice gal. I was queuing for our lunch n she msged me "do ya wanna swap? My turn to queue." She's very polite and kind-hearted. Then went Orchard to meet one of my best friends in sch, Huangyi. Desmond and Wing cldn't make it to join us bcos of the CVPR conf paper. We went shopping and steamboat buffet! Hadn't been shoppin' like this 4 ages...i luv Christmas in Singapore, its jus so beautiful everywhere.










Talked online with Ade jus now. She claimed tat she may get dismissed from her job bcos her lady boss feels tat she's a threat to her. I reckon tat's really really childish. N i told her if she was doin' her part n discipline enough, n not doin' smthin' 'extra', i dun reckon tat wld happen. Sometimes i think Ade is a little weird. She likes to do thin' differently... n she's ravin' over some idols, some cultural stuffs...etc etc. :) Be gd Ade.

Final paper...hooray!! Motor&IT show trip

I turned in at 5am last nite 2 finish up my final exam revision, n woke up at 6.45am this mornin', rushed 2 sch 4 my last paper at 9.30am. Pretty happy with the paper, no complaint...but was dead tired after tat. :P Didn't go home, went IT show at Expo with Chongyan. There was a motor show there 2.




We went Tampine for dinner, wat else but sushi again, our favorite. :P Went to the one which Ade n I went months ago. It reminded me of Ade.


Went for haircut after...dead tired...gettin' 2 bed soon...!!!!