Dealin' wif our sassy Xue, Sis is back Singapore

Ade read my blog n msg me yesterday sendin' her rgds, so sweet of her... was very touched, thank ya Ade. I dunno which matters she was referrin' to... i've too much catastrophes. Another one today, my mobile phone went on strike. I sent my mobile phone 2 dopod service centre 4 servicin' this mornin' b4 gettin' 2 sch. Soooo.... tirin'. Still dealin' wif our sassy Xue in the evenin'… she wanna get me 2 compensate her by takin' her 2 dinner. I thought it was a reasonably gd deal but it has been 2 consecutive days n she persisted to haf it for another 2-3 days. I m now in this intricate situation tat I dunno how to say no as she is intransigent. Xue i enjoyed hangin' out wif ya but I haf lotsa work on hand rite now… how abt after early dec?

On my way hm, there was this gal who rode a bicycle headin' towards me n apparently I wld gif way. However she caught a glimpse of me n fell rite in front of me, i guess she was frightened by my hideous look :( . I kinda gibed askin' "Are ya ok?" while tryin' 2 help her up. She was kinda embarrassed too n ans "yeah yeah I m ok"… in a chinese accent (think she's a Chinese as fr China). I felt so sorry!

Sista came bk fr US (Alaska) ard 12am midnite. She bought lotsa stuffs as usual... some for mum n me 2. I luv the energy bars she got 4 me... i can save time havin' tat 4 lunch. :) Its very late now... i m turnin' in, gdnite or mornin'...whichever!

See wat sista bought 4 herself!

Feelin' gloomy

I m feelin' gloomy, grave n mournful today. Yes i had been waitin' for friday throughout the week.... lookin' 4ward 2 see her. In noon, mum talked abt my deceased grandma, who doted on me the most out of her many grandchildren. Tat was so long ago n even b4 i went Aust. Mum said she was still talkin' abt me in the hospital. I know i wun be able 2 see her again, not to mention abt hearin' her groovy voice n i've so much 2 tell her. I wanna tell ya i've been workin' hard these yrs n did not let ya down, i wanna tell ya abt the gal i like, i wanna tell ya i miss ya so much....!!! I've not lost her, she stays in my mind. I despise the feelin' of losin' someone but pragmatically it happens... i m tired of life God! I've been like fightin' in the war everyday, its abt ferocity, carnage n intelligent of human, is it worthwhile?!? I m not socratic!!

In the evenin', i thought she wun be there after 8.30...was relatively disappointed, till i saw her. Yes of cos she wasn't as happy 2 see me though.... sigh. I accepted tat long ago... but still cldn't help feelin' sad.... I know she will find tat someone one day like wat Jesse indicated. God... pls take very gd care of her n i wish them felicity in life. It sounds like a renunciation of luv but its not. I did not renounce likin' her, but jus tat i need not possess her to luv her.

I reckon i m still not very sober lately... hmm... yr guys better not askin' me much ques, even simple ones. Xue called n inquired abt bus 2 chalet fr Pasir ris. I replied her bus 403. She had a hard time findin' bus 403 which brought her further away fr the chalet. When she reached nowhere n called me again.... i then rem bus 403 goes to my place.... not chalet. Hahaaaa.... so sorry Xue!! :P

Lookin' 4 private apartment

Yesterday Prof Sluzek passed me his part on pattern detection, to be integrated into my part. He showed me his work n really blew me away. I didn't expect it to be tat useful 4 me. I hope we cld come out wif a very gd paper. I consulted him on some unsolved equations n we took like 2 hrs, together wif Desmond help to solve it. I was soooo... exhausted!! :(

Today went to view a couple of apartments wif mum. She wld like to invest a tad on apartment, rentin' it out or so. I reckon the apartments nowadays r gettin' smaller... hmm... tats a new one launchin' soon, will see how it goes.

Mum asked which location wld i prefer in Singapore n i still prefer smwhere nearby 2 my current place. Reasons? I like the beach, my family stays here, her family stays here 2. Hahaaaa.... more convenient 4 us?!? :)

Proposal on face detection

After several days n nites burnin' several gallons of midnite oil, i've finished implementin' a novel algorithm on face detection. After generatin' the results, i'll start writin' the proposal. I m really tired but conf dateline is gettin' near. Today Sharon called n wanna meet up for dinner, but i jus cldn't make it. I'll catch up wif ya another day. :) I miss old Aunt, should haf stay over at her place tonite, i like chattin' wif her 2. Mum went shoppin' at vivo city wif her today n again i received some accolades (as in words) fr her again! N yesterday 2 of my mum's friends (Auntie Jen & teacher Heng) dropped by our place n both of them alleged havin' me as their godson... haha... when haf i becum so well-liked? Ok gotta get back 2 work, can't spend 2 much time here!

Havin' a bad headache!

Didn't really sleep well lately n still havin' a bad headache. Slept at 4am last nite finishin' up some codes 2 show Prof Yow today. Prof Sluzek who is collaboratin' wif me is finishin' up his part too, meetin' me on Wed. We r at war! I wanna submit a few proposals 2 the top conf this year, which is due in Dec. Last nite was kinda writin' n fixin' some bugs in the code. How to calculate the angle bet 2 vectors? E.g. using dot product:

A.B = A B cosine(theta),
where theta = inverse cosine(dot product/(magnitude of Vector 1 X magnitude of Vector 2)) and A and B are normalized to Unit vectors.

There r so much equations 2 to be added 2 the papers too, i can't afford 2 make any mistake!!

Conversation wif Wing

Had a conversation wif Wing who is currently workin' at Microsoft research centre Beijing. Really miss him alot n dunno when we can meet again. Our conversation is as followed:

Wing~~ says:
She finally met me for lunch
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
wow
Wing~~ says:
I wanted to pay for her, but she insisted to pay me
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
nice gal
Wing~~ says:
that was her birthday, I gave her birthday present
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
wow she was willin' to spend her birthday with ya
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
ya r winning dude
Wing~~ says:
you should try to do the same to G3
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
nah, i know i've no chance
Wing~~ says:
you gave up before any try
Wing~~ says:
you should at least do something before giving up
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
Sigh...long story, anyway i m happy as long as i see her weekly
Wing~~ says:
but you are too cool
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
sigh
Wing~~ says:
how's your study in ntu ?
.......

G3 is the name we gave her 4 some reasons, n everyone (my friends) knows her as G3. :) Cool name huh?

Happy n weary Friday

Slept at 4.30am last nite n woke up ard 8 to sch... was totally wearied today. Still workin' really hard on the papers!! But Friday is my favorite day of the week. I did not get back hm 2 sleep after sch, instead i still met up my mps friends. I m always really blissful 2 see them ppl. I had not seen her 4 abt 2 weeks... n now i m a happy man. :) I dun like Sat n Sun as they r far fr Friday.... haha. We went supper rite after. May be goin' 4 a jog wif Shereen & Joel in the mornin'... but not sure if they cld wake up since we stayed so late last nite.

I met a really bizarre woman today who asked me lotsa irrelevant ques, e.g. Wat's yr current occupation? How much ya earn per mth?? Wat do ya like... n on n on n on!?! I tried several times 2 digress her bk to the subject...n she still cld cut in somehow in bet our conversation. Thank Vincent 4 comin' forward n kinda stopped the conversation as i was tired (maybe not by her but i was jus 2 sleepy n worn out). Ppl were jeerin' at me!! :P I hope she cld get a place asap.

Today Xian dressed up, not sure where she went as she refused 2 tell me. However she affirmed tat she was in a gd mood... i m happy 4 her 2. Sista is flyin' 1st class 2 Alaska (US) tmr. Hope she'll enjoy herself.

Takin' videos & sushi day

Went Chongyan's place 2 take some videos 4 project, then went AMK central 4 sushi lunch. Rushed hm 2 continue workin', lotsa work... i am at WAR!!! I m not really sober lately... pardon me all my dear friends. I still will go tmr... wish i cld see her. I m tired now! :(

Hawker at AMK, Noisy backgrd at CY's place (ideal 4 my video)

. . . . . . . .AMK central . . . . . . . . . . .Sushi lunch . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .Handsome Chongyan. . . . . . . . . .

Havin' flu. Happy birthday Huangyi

Didn't go uni this mornin', havin' flu. Today is Huangyi's birthday, suppose 2 join the guys 4 the celebration dinner later but i guess i wun make it. Been workin' like 16 hrs a day on the comin' conf paper... goin' crazy! One of my favorite Profs in NUS is leavin' 2 Japan (4 greener pastures?)... quite saddened. Why r ppl leavin' while i chose 2 come bk? Jus discussed wif Desmond, we dunno where we wld be in like 2 yrs down the road. Desmond is considerin' workin' in Singapore but his wife prefers 2 stay in HK. I told him if i were him, i wld stay wherever my wife wanna... bcos if she's unhappy... i wun be happy 2. Are greener pastures more impt than yr family? I dun mind how much i can earn as long as my family is jovial. Then Desmond goes like interrogatin' me "Haf ya passed her the gifts?....".... here he goes again!! :P

Old Aunt came 2 visit us this mornin'. She brought me herbal tea 2... n we went coffeeshop 4 lunch. Bumped into mum's friend whose grandson (abt 5 yr old) was delighted 2 see me n reluntant 2 go sch. Aunt remarked tat kids like me, n mum added embellishments to it "Yeah he is beloved by everyone, children to elderly.... diff fr his sista." :) Am i?!? I reckon she exaggerated.

Inner beauty n hygiene r most impt

Chatted wif a friend (Anna) today n I somehow depicted myself as UGLY. She stopped me “If ya were ugly then all guys in the world wld be ugly.” I felt flattered n I replied “Thank ya 4 yr consolation”. :P

Ok to be serious, I personally believe in inner beauty more than looks (e.g. lookin' for my future wife). I rem I read an article b4 “how impt are tires on a car? Not as impt as an engine apparently”, which is relatively true. However, I reckon tat no matter guys or gals, should at least haf gd personal hygiene n tidiness. I know of ppl who only wash their hair twice a week, or wearin’ the same shirt for two/three continuous days. For myself, I m a little overdo or overindulged esp in the hot n humid Singapore… i jus wun wanna sweat though i dun sweat easily, or else I’ll feel really uncomfortable n wanna shower. N I dun go canteens which haf poor air circulation or durin' peak hrs… which causes yr shirt to haf this smell of foods… I loathe it. These r the reasons y I scarcely join uni friends 4 lunch, esp in the hot afternoon. Usually gals haf better hygiene discipline than guys but seriously i reckon i m the exceptional one ard. :P:P

Busy day...but still in gd mood!

Last nite at Aunt's place was cool, i got up at 7am n reached uni ard 8am+. Had a meetin' with Prof Yow n Prof Sluzek near the evenin'. I did a presentation 2 them. Prof Sluzek suggested an approach n was happy 2 collaborate wif us. I got some of his papers n gonna digest them by tonite. I'm proposin' a few papers 4 the comin' conf... it sounds insane (proposin' one is already very tough) but Prof Yow is finally inspired by my fortitude. He fully supports me now n he said this to me today "I may be clearin' some leaves next week but if ya need 2 see me jus let me know n i'll come over." I was so touched... indeed my gd n meritorious supervisor. :)

Supposed 2 meet Kelly 4 dinner at SGH, where she was havin' her attachment. But the meetin' ended quite late so i cancelled it, sorry Kelly. Desmond showed me his student's pics today n he wanna matchmake me n her...so nice of him. :) Yeah she looks pretty... hmm... but... i m weird. I dun really haf tat 'feel' 4 much gals as most of my friends will know... lackin' of the burnin' sensation n itchin' in my heart.... until i met her. When did i fond of her? Initially i didn't, n we didn't really talk 2 each other. She rarely smiled n looked so dull. I was touched when she asked abt my operation n stuffs sometime ago when i was in my most depressed mood in my entire life. I realised myself comfortably tellin' her everythin' (which i hardly will tell others). Moveover, she smiles or in fact chortles alot after knowin' each other better...this is the 1st time in my life which i cld feel the burnin' sensation in my heart whenever i see her. My mum noticed tat n she cld see it 2. She's also the 1st n only gal i ever told my mum abt... as my mum is a rather strict & austere woman. But this time she uttered "I didn't see ya like this b4... i m sure ya like her. Do ya haf her pic?" Hahaa... i was really jolly n kinda bewildered when i heard tat. Most of my gd friends know abt her 2... n we named her as "G3" 4 some reasons. They wld be like "So how r ya n G3?" n as usual i wld ans "Nothin' as usual, i dun think i'll do anythin', i m happy as long as i know she is happy." Tats me n everyone denounced me as an idiot when comes to luv. I kinda pessimistic 2 as i somehow got the red signal fr her b4.

Blissful day of the month

Didn't go 2 uni today, stayed rather late at uni last nite. Desmond is fine wif me now n i m really pleased tat he understands my intention at last (abt our previous disagreement). As usual was rushin' 4 papers at hm. Today is the most blissful day of the month... she perked me up on msn. She said she n together wif our other friends wld miss me if i go bk 2 Aust/US after grad... tat was sooo... sweet of her. I know she mean missin' me as a friend, i m contented n jovial though. I miss some of my friends in Aust/US too, e.g. Gaetan, Benson, Jesse, Joe, Jim, Tudo, Rin, Artemis, Jane, etc. I accompanied mum 4 a walk in the park... n i was floatin' on the warm invisible clouds. Mum was kinda suspicious... oops... tats my deficit!! :)

Afterward i gonna go clementi to sleep over at my Aunt's place. She's old n stayin' alone all by herself. I stay over at her place occasionally 2 acc her. She told my mum she likes me alot...(ha see how endearin' i m :P). Jus kiddin'... i m happy to see her too. Anyway her place is quite close to uni, so i dun mind goin' uni fr her place in the mornin'.

Extrapolation

How one looks like after gaining weight and losing hair?


Chongyan likes it when i sent this to him.... hahaahaaa, so cool, and his project mates couldn't stop cacklin'. :P

Thanks Shereen 4 the pics

Shereen sent me some pics again which we took some time ago. I jus luv these ppl in the pics, they were the ones who perked up my daysss...! I cld be goin' back Aust or US in the comin' future after grad, n i jus wanna keep all these pics for memories... i know i gonna miss everyone of them.


Today went to uni (Sunday mornin') to meet Tien for takin' panoramic pics of campus. It started to rain ard noon n we gotta stop. Bad weather ruined all our plans. :(

Conversation with Jesse (My American's buddy) abt her

Chatted with Jesse on msn abt her. Jesse is gettin' married in Feb. Our conversation is as followed:

ĴįmMΫ™ says:
I bought her a birthday gift previously, n another gift recently fr my US trip but jus didn't pass it to her. I'm worried i may lose her even as a friend if she knows
Jesse says:
dude just give it to her
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
all my friends said tat too, but the gifts r still with me, maybe i'll accumulate more first
Jesse says:
if you like her and think shes worth it then do it, if not then dont, dont accumulate, bad move
Jesse says:
just take my last advice i think thats the best one, if you think shes worth the risk then do it
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
the risk is too big, i might lose the gal i like most
Jesse says:
b/c in the end, she prob won't be your friend in the end, like in 10 years, she'll meet someone else and marry them
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
i know...sigh...i m a failure, but as long as she's happy

Two days at Bugis

Met up wif Chongyan yesterday at Bugis to replace my SD memory card at the service centre. I lost all my pics taken in US. We went Swensen for dinner. I went for haircut in the evenin' n my cousin Weilun drove Xiumin n i to Geylang for supper, followed by Pasir ris for tea... tirin' day.

Met Hendrik today for sushi dinner at Bugis again. I bought some white chocolates as i was cravin' for tat when i saw a gal eatin' them on the train. :)

She's not in a gd mood?

In my previous post as ya cld see, i m not in a gd mood today. I saw her on msn in the evenin' too. Her personal msg wasn't too optimistic... smthin' related to her mood. I guess she wasn't in a gd mood either. Didn't talk to her as i knew she never like me to ask her too much, jus like i reminded her to go for her medical checkup. I bought her smthin' fr States but as usual i guess i wun pass it to her.

Upset wif my best friend Desmond in uni

Last week, Wing wrote smthin' appallin' abt someone in his blog n Desmond was really fumin' thinkin' he was writin' abt him. I was overwhelmed too n confronted Wing on msn why did he write abt Desmond again. Wing explained n sweared tat he did not write abt him, n i found out who he was writin' abt later. Yes without any delay I explained to Desmond, not bcos i wanna help Wing, but i wanted so much to calm Desmond down. I had not seen Desmond tat angry b4 n it was jus a misunderstandin'. But Desmond was still in a fume no matter how i explained to him. Eventually, he ended up thinkin' i was sidin' Wing, tryin' to help him out of this. He argued even Huangyi agree tat it was writin' abt him etc etc. I did not try to help anyone, n if Wing were really writin' abt him, i wld be tellin' him off too, but he wasn't. I dun mean it was rite of him to write abt anyone, but at tat moment i jus wanna resolve this misunderstandin' n let Desmond calm down.

Today i came back to lab, i saw Desmond at his desk n i went over to say hi etc. to him, but he didn't even wanna look at me, n i cld tell tat he was still angry with me. I m not blamin' him, I m jus disappointed tat the friend i considered one of my best friends actually treated me kinda shoddily. Anyway, if tat cld make him feel better, i wun bother him again.