Saturday, November 29, 2008

I am naive

Received an email, Bryan denounced me as NAIVE... haha. =) True... now i know. Yes and i can be very stupid too at times.

Take care baby

I m astonished tat the change of a person can be so dramatic... in such aaaa... short time, wow. Time really proves everythin'. I never blame baby pig... was all my fault, n i very much wan her to be happy now. =) If this is wat she wans, i respect her... i understand. She's always my friend, n my other dear friends please do not comment anythin' abt this k.... i dun wan her to be unhappy, she's a happy gal now.

I wanna thanks Sharon n Dan here for helpin' me to get some stuff i needed. Yr guys r jus awesome n efficient. Seems like i've lotsa soverniors to buy. This will be the 1st time i m takin' more pics durin' my travel.... ya know i didn't like takin' much pics esp when i travelled alone. =) Ok i'll upload some pics here on Sun (Mon in Singapore) or Mon (Tue in Singapore). Be gd everyone n take care.

Ready to strike

Ok i really gotta blog this... its really hilarious. Today i emailed many of them n asked who wanna invest into my gamblin' pleasure/games in Las Vegas...hahaa. The deal is simple, the overall $$ tat i won i'll jus keep 10% n the rest will be divided among the investors dependin' on how much each invested. Ok anyway i got some responses which added up to a sum of US$950 includin' my share. I changed the $$ immediately. Dan demanded me to comb my hair high up for better luck....hahaaaa. Anyway the game has not started yet.... pray hard buddies! =)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Uploadin' pics soon

I'll upload some pics soon this weekend. REALLY really busy lately... killin' me. Today I m so touched to see so many msgs here n in my email inbox fr Sharon. Sorry Sharon internet access was really bad so didn't have a chance to get online... ya r soooo... nice. Silly dun worry abt me k? I guess some people have jus forgotten abt me obviously, or jus too busy with bfs, etc. =) Yes time can prove everythin' as i said, people will change... n i predicted it right again. I dun like to rush thing as i know time proves everythin'. Sad but at least i get to know the answer now. N ya know wat? I wun mind tellin' my friends n even amenable to write it in my blog if i luv someone... its a joy to me, rather than treatin' tat person as a "secret lover" which nobody should know. Haha... I feel so silly of myself now... i finally understand wat was goin' on.

I m headin' to Vegas soon. Today i saw the flowers i bought for someone lately. I m sooo... pissed off bcos its so diff fr wat i ordered. I ordered 6 pink tulips + 6 purple tulips + some other little deco stuff... then i realised i got this msg the followin' day tat informed me they didn't have purple tulips tat day so replaced it with other deco... but apparently this doesn't look like wat i wanted... n it wasn't cheap or worth tat price now... ya can't believe the price includin' delivery. Sigh... how cld ppl do biz like this?
Thanks to Jess, Jaslyn, Brian, Ming, n Jolene too i saw yr emails. On the day i touch down Singapore i gotta meet an American friend for a drink somewhere (time n location i wun write it here) i'll inform yr later... join us if yr guys r free. =) I'll try to win more $$ in Vegas n get yr more soverniors k? Haha...

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Farewell party

Tonite Chris is throwin' a farewell party for Jonathan. I only met him once but why not since these people are out there to drink with me... its a gd day to kill me. I m sponsorin' a Lardit red wine 2002 bought fr France and a Martell for mixers. Chris said yes we gonna perform some OLD SCHOOL songs. But we charge k? Please pay rite at the counter... =) Dan n Sharon thanks for informin' me.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

My blur face

Jus woke up, unshaved, tired, messy hair, n yes my blur face...


Finally i smiled today... on the 5th day. Jus now i was playin' the piano with one hand while the other hand holdin' on to my mobile phone talkin' to a friend. Went for a run in the evenin' after the rain stopped. I bought smthin' today, i hope this can make someone happy, n i wun leave my name for sure, doesn't matter fr who. Oh i've not prepared my presentation slides for vegas... can ya believe tat?

Ringing in my head

This song i intro below (heart of the matter) was ringin' in my head last nite... kept dreamin' abt it, esp this part...

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out,
I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

Life and death

We always proclaim tat we should cherish everyone around us, but the truth is we never practice wat we preach. If I were to pass tomorrow, I’d live with heaps of regrets. Life and death is inevitable and everyone of us will have a chance to lie straight in the coffin, sooner or later. Have you ever wondered why babies are always crying when they arrive into this world? Maybe they know tat the upcomin’ path is long and not gonna be easy.

Today i dunno wat was goin' on n ppl were askin' me the same que "Where r ya goin' tonite?" Jus to name a few... hmm.. Wyne, Shirley, Wing, Sharon, Jess, Jaslyn, Bri, ..." N i gave the same ans "I dunno" as i had no idea... but in the end i met up with Wing. He was back from Korea and I met up with him at Marina Sq for dinner. We had so much to catch up. He’s leavin’ us soon to be a Professor at one of the uni in Korea. We thought of headin’ to winebar for a drink initially but we didn’t in the end. I went for a run at the park after reachin’ home. Was abt 10pm but the park was kinda crowded tonite… I hope I wasn’t seeing “things”. Should i run again tomorrow or join Ade to zouk? Have not seen her for long.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Heart of the matter

Rem Chris n i composed this song "Her California dream"? Yes kinda sad song but i do luv it, it goes really cool. I m listenin' to this song "Heart of the Matter" now, by Don Henley. Great song, well composed.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

3rd day

Today is the 3rd day i came back fr my little dreamland to the reality. I've never smile since then. I dun feel like doin' anythin' anymore... n i feel so tired everyday. Is my life comin' to an end? Why do i still miss her badly??

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

One click one meal

With just a click, one meal gets paid towards starvin' people around the world by donatin' to the World Food Programme. So i hope your guys can help by clickin' on the link below:

http://www.oneclickonemeal.com/

World food programme reached 86 million needy in 80 countries in 2007 alone, providin' them with food. This organisation is completely reliant on voluntary donations from people like us. So the least we can do now is by clickin' which each click will provide one meal to the needy fr sponsors. I've been doin' this everyday so i reckon i should post it here to share it with yr guys now. Pleaseee.... help together with me, thanks.

Hangover

Despite havin' a hangover fr last nite, i woke up rather early. I was worried if she cld wake up for her mornin' exam today. Wanted to msg but i didn't in the end. I shouldn't be so nosy, someone else wld do the job.

Today is Aunt's day of admission to the hospital. i hope she'll get well soon n be back with us. I m havin' a meetin' soon but my head feels kinda heavy. I really feel like givin' up n get back to Aust to work. I m still in the progress of finishin' this song, a gift for me. I m exhausted...

Ok givin' myself a slap in my face, (wakin' up) i wanna thank Dan who was there with me last nite, n Xue, Jess, Sharon n whoever who msged me to send their rgds last nite. Back to work!!

Monday, November 17, 2008

I m goin' crazy

I m goin' crazy. I feel ashamed of myself to be in love wif this gal who already haf a bf... n all these while i've been a 3rd party. She argued tat i m not... then wat am i? Or issit a norm to love two guys at the same time?? Or maybe all these while she has been takin' me as a normal friend. She still wanna meet me... this is drivin' me crazy. I think i m really goin' crazy... i still haf lotsa work on hand, aunt to worry abt, etc etc... i can't go down now!!!!! I shall leave her alone back to her bf, i know she'll not rem me when time goes by. Yes friends pls knock some senses into me.

Pray for Aunt Jen

Aunt Jen is goin' for a major op this week to remove the cancerous tumor in her body. The risk is extremely high n i m very worried n moody today. She told mum she doesn't wan us to visit her n tat hurts me most. I believe she doesn't wan us to see her in tat state. She always like to dress up like a celebrity n she jus wan us to rem her as tat. Tats nothin' i can do for her.. tat reminds me of tat day where grandma passed away n i helplessly watched her end her last breath. Ppl r leavin' me one by one, n today a friend asked me if we should stop contactin' each other for awhile. I wld if tat cld make them happier. Yes i believe time will prove everythin'.

Oh i've not finished with the song yet.. been busy lately!!! This song means alot to me. And I need 30 hrs a day instead of 24. Oh Jas is gonna be a mum soon... so envy her!!!! I didn't know she got married... so gd. I WANNA get married n be a dad too!!!!! SO COOL!!

Sunday

Went out 4 some work n met Dr Tay abt 9pm in the evenin'. We had supper n i really like the dishes at one of the hawker centres. I wanted to take pics but i only rem after we emptied the dishes. We ordered fish, veges, chicken wings, golden doufu (not golden in color but tats the name), soup, n rice. We went fishermen village for a drink after. I m quite happy tat he actually gave me some gd advises on my work. N i kinda thought of an approach to work on the exp... but not sure if it works. Thank ya very much Dr Tay.

So tired... n my goodness i m still awake at 2.30am in the mornin' n have been for consecutive dayssss... i believe i've been influenced or bein' infected by a monster virus. Dun get me? Nvm.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Suicide

I m writin' this of cos i m not contemplatin' suicide or euthanasia. But i finally understand how Alex felt. Weeks ago Alex told me he was kinda depressed with his work n was thinkin' of givin' up. He told me he was feelin' suicidal like many of us would. Of cos i was laughin' over it instead of pilin' weights on his shoulders. I asked him wat so big deal abt our work/experiment tat cld make him feel suicidal. Yes when the stress/pain exceeds the stress/pain copin' resources, suicidal feelin' is the result. It is not a defect of character n it's morally neutral. Today i get to understand tat feelin'.... i feel so tired... feel like renouncin' my work... n go away for awhile.

I m blessed with some awesome friends around me to make me grin like a kid. I wanna specially thanks to Sophia for cheerin' me up these few weeks... i m really touched by wat ya did for me. I know ya gonna be busy when ya touched down Singapore, with yr sistaaaaa..., bf, n so. Enjoy yrself k n study hard for yr final paper. N I wanna hereby apologize to ZL n the team for me leavin' early tonite. Yr guys did a very gd job btw.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

六月的雨

Jess sent me her favorite song, i think i heard it somewhere before. I pretty like the lyrics.

六月的雨

Friday, November 14, 2008

Uncertainty

I was quite disturbed emotionally yesterday when a friend told me abt her uncertainty. I dun wanna be the villain who break ppl up or affect her decision. All these while I m a hidden secret...

Lotsa work which is gonna make me crazy... n i feel sooo suffocated. I m tired... n i'm havin' headache rite now. I've not prepared for my Vegas trip. I'll take more pics this time.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

trophiesales.com

I've come across this interesting website to get Wresting trophies. You can either buy the wrestling trophies by completing the order form and submit or call at 708-535-9104.

Of course it includes other trophies for examples the Swimming trophies and Cheerleading trophies.

The site is a professional supplier of trophies, plaques, medals and awards. It offers the lowest possible prices in a nationally competitive environment. Check it out!!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Visitor Prof James Barber

Been hearin' abt him these few weeks n he's finally here Prof James Barber, Lee Kuan Yew distinguished visitor. Yes i attended his interestin' talk "Solar energy to fuels: If the leaf can do it, we can do it". Ok alittle more abt him, he joined Imperial College since 1968 n awarded an honorary doctorate of Stockholm University. He has published over 400 research papers n recently been elected President of the International Society of Photosynthesis Research.

Gd luck for yr examsss...

Today Sophia is havin' exam... n i m gonna wish her luck here. Do yr best!!

Saturday, November 08, 2008

10 things I hate about you

Jus for fun i rem people askin' me wat i hate most abt gals, could be jus a friend, gf or wife. Got this urge to write it down.

Things i hate about gals (no priority order)
1) Makin' guys do their work/homework/assignments etc.
2) Who change their bf like they wld change clothes.
3) Comparin' me with their bf/ex-bf/lover etc.
4) Lie abt anythin'.
5) Yellin' on their cellphones like anyone really gives a crap wat they're talkin' abt.
6) Schizophrenic who think every guys will fall for her beauty n she gets everythin' she wans.
7) Overwhelm me with questions as though they are gonna marry to me.
8) Try to appear smart/elegant/educated but its painfully obvious they're a dumbass (at least to me, i dun buy it).
9) Makin' guys pay exhoribitant prices for anythin' they like.
10) Rude n still think they r rite as if that person deserves it.

Hmm... to be frank i won't be impressed by a gal's beauty or intelligence. Everyone is unique n if ya like someone ya like wat he/she is. Same goes to the way people look at me. I loathe it when gals tellin' me tat they feel inferior with me. Come on i m jus a human like anyone of ya, my blood is RED too.... not purple!!!

I also rem Jess askin' me this que, "Wld ya mind to have a gal as yr gf/wife if she is a mum, smokes, n watever bad things ya cld think abt?" I ans her no if i really like her. Few days ago a friend told me she got a miscarriage b4 n stuff. I didn't scorn her or so but in fact i thought she was valiant n honest to me... i added credits on her for tat rather than scornin' her. Its difficult to find someone who is so frank to me, rather than tryin' to impress me with anythin' they cld. Ok anyway we had a tiff bcos i really dislike her comparin' me with her ex-bfssssss.... n tat wasn't the 1st time she did tat. (E.g. he is the same as ya for this... n tat.., oh n this one he looks abit like ya... etc etc.).

I m terrifically busy lately. Conf paper submission due in less than two weeks, preparation for my presentation in Vegas, help Chris compose this unfinished song, mark assignments, etc.

Awesome evenin'

Had an awesome evenin' with Chris, ZL and the rest. We were doin' rock band at Chris's place, oh yeah crank it loud!! Yes was hilarious n gratifying at least to our dear friends out there. I enjoyed myself with these ppl, esp after a day of dreary work. I drank only a tad compared to most of them, they were like cravin' for drinks. =) I had been questioned on the "Perth sweetheart" the whole nite... i dunno who came out with this Perth sweetheart hearsay n come on it doesn't exist.

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Too nice?

I dun usually talk much on msn n i'd only stay longer when necessary. Its hurtin' when people wld jus talk to ya (when they have the FEEL to) or ignore ya whenever they wan takin' ya for granted. Come on i'm as busy as ya are.

Wakin' up early in the mornin', i gotta acc family for breakfast n start off my day. There r lotsa stuff waitin' for me to do...

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Fears

Do yr guys know smthin', i loathe people doin' sales, MLM, etc etc. They try all ways to close a deal with ya. I loathed the banker who persuaded my mum to invest a big amt of money on some investments tat he didn't really understand. I loathed a gd friend of mine after he tried ways to close a huge sum of insurance deal with me... n he claimed tat he was jus tryin' to help me... n it was for my gd.

This mornin' i had a bad gastric pain. I was wonderin' how much insurance plans i had on hand, kinda ironic rite? Yes i m thinkin' i should get abit more on insurance these few days. I m quite pessimistic abt life nowadays. Aunt is down with cancer, neighbor in his 20s is sufferin' fr kidney failure, n wat else cld happen ya never know. Have ya asked yrself if ya've enough time for smthin' ya wanna do/establish/see? For the time bein', at least i hope i've enough time to finish my current work, n to see some flyin' colors fr a friend's transcript. Work hard!!

Tat reminds me of this song i heard on a chinese tv.

Monday, November 03, 2008

Clip to make me smile...

A friend sent me several audio clips to cheer me up. But i m not allowed to share, blog abt her, post her pic, or disclose her name n identity here. =) Yes i feel quite heartrendin' too... i wun see her name or my name anywhere related, e.g. her blog or mine... so secretive rite? I always bring these clips with me so my day can be perked up anytime, anywhere. Today i decided to share this clip "I dun wan" here... only three words... hope she wun mind. Listen to it, its so hilarious... i still can't stop laughin' at it. =)

Click here to hear.

Saturday, November 01, 2008

All couples do tat

Every couple argues fr time to time, it doesn't mean there's anythin' wrong with yr relationship. I rem months ago a friend of mine argued with her bf n she was sure tat was the end of the relationship. I told her the same thing.. "every couple argues.... " n now they r engaged. =)

Last week a friend of mine argued with her bf too... kinda broke up. I said the same old thing... n still they r fine now. =)

Actually its healthy, couples who argue are better able to work out problems tat they're havin', while couples who bottle their feelings usually end their relationship earlier.
 
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