Last day of 2007

Today is the last day of 2007. Supposed 2 meet David n Eljin at Mox bar (which i dunno where) in the late evenin', but i ended up watchin' movie wif Hendrik. Yeah the show i always wanna watch, "I am Legend". Hmm... really like it initially, till the end which wasn't quite convincin' though. However its still a gd show i reckon, not for faint-hearted. :)

Sydney again celebrated with the massive fireworks display at the harbour of Australia's largest city this yr. I miss my celebrations there... enjoyin' the midnite fireworks. Streaks of red, green and blue light flew from the bridge and office buildings across the city centre, reflecting off the famous Opera House and the harbour.... it was beautiful.

Cravin' for a movie/end of chalet

First time in my life ever i feel like goin' 4 a movie. I reckon this movie "I m legend" is so cool n the idea is new. Will Smith in the movie as a Dr scientist (i think) which is the only survivor in New York City after an outbreak of virus devastated the population. The once busy New York City became uninhabited... is worth watchin' in the movie threatre. Hmm... i dun really haf time 2 catch a movie... n who shall i go wif? My little cousin??

Didn't really stay in the chalet yesterday, jus went 4 an hour n left bcos of my bad flu tat i didn't wanna spread 2 anyone. Go cart this mornin' was so fun... we did enjoy it though it was alittle short. Tonite we r havin' a bbq, though i wun be able to eat (sick) but i'll still be ard wif the rest. The chalet is supposed 2 get us all together... once a yr thing which i dun wanna miss no matter how busy or sick i m.

At 11.40pm i jus reached hm fr the chalet. I didn't eat much at the bbq as i was still very sick. I had a bad headache 2. Finally G3 came 4 a short while n left. We didn't talk at all as i was busy wif the bbq n she was helpin' out on other stuffs 2. We a few of us guys played volleyball n basketball rite after. I felt slightly better after all the sweatin'. However it's comin' bk after my shower. I've never had such a long bad flu ever in my life, been 3 days.... had so many panadols.... vitamin C, flu tea.... visited doctor etc etc. The headache was quite bad 2... m i gonna die? :) Frankly speakin' i dun mind as i m seriously tired of life 2... sigh. When one has nothin' 2 look forward 2 everyday, no goal, no need $$, no wife, no children, .... ya kinda dunno wat ya r here 4. I missed Chris's performance yesterday, the song we composed together. But i m sure he did it well. :)

Chalet chalet...

Got so many missed calls n msgs today when i woke up. Still quite sick with flu... hope i can go to the chalet later... i miss the ppl.

I loathe it when ppl lie 2 me. I was told tat she was home the whole mornin' n noon waitin' for her guy 2 off fr work n then met up in the evenin'. She came hm late as usual but she told me she was gettin' 2 bed at 10+pm. Today she cld date earlier as today is weekend. After knowin' her better doesn't make me like her any better. I dun really concern abt who she is datin', but jus dun haf 2 lie 2 me bcos i m definitely not one of her "guys" out there. Hope she can jus pick one fr there n be truthful n devoted 2 him... pls.

Bein' described as an iceberg

I went 2 sch early in the mornin' despite all the flu n stuffs. Desmond flew 2 Singapore yesterday n flyin' bk tomorrow, so i gonna meet him in sch maybe 4 the last time. I can't send him off tomorrow bcos of the chalet. He's havin' a farewell dinner wif the rest later but i m not joinin' them as i'm still quite sick. I went lunch wif him instead... to the famous porridge at canteen 1.

Flora called sendin' her rgds abt my sickness. She asked me 2 meet her later 2 pass me smthin' etc. Hmm... i told her i dun think i haf time today n she described me as an iceberg.... meanin' i m a coldman. Haha... am i? Frankly speakin' i reckon i m quite cold at times.... hmm... pardon me. :) I m not like most of the guys who r usually more genial (wif a benevolent smile) 2 ladies, unless she belongs 2 my family, e.g., my wife. :)

My flu condition is gettin' worse in the evenin'... jus can't stop sneezin' now, n my nose is so red like a buffoon.

Sick, on MC

Went 2 Dr Tan this mornin', one of our family favorite doctors. Supposed 2 go sch 4 meetin' wif Tien but i was jus too weak 2 go, n down wif all these flu, cough, sore throat, fever etc. really drained me out. Xue came 2 visit me after her half day work n i was kinda touched although I told her this "Hey i m not hospitalized yet, dun haf 2 visit me". She brought me some vitamin sweets.... haha but i dun really eat sweets. We went 4 alittle walk in the park as the weather was jus awesome (no rain, not sunny, not 2 windy). She's a very sensible gal. I told Ming today she got a really diff char fr us, n smtimes she really pisses me off.... which i dun wanna talk abt it here. I can't help her in any way n i dun haf time 2 bother abt her anymore, kinda given up. But anyway she enjoys it... let her be....

i'm sick

I m fallin' sick, bad sore thoat n flu... jus popped some tablets. Went for haircut this afternoon, i like it though mum commented tat she cldn't see any diff before n after the cut, haha. :)

Had a short conversation wif Ming last nite after her date. We haf very diff perspective on relationship matters i guess. I wished her luck 4 her daily datin' tat occupied her well. :) I was explainin' 2 her i wasn't quite happy abt tat day when she asked me 2 go online while she was headin' bk hm. But in the end she didn't come online bcos she went out again for another date n had forgotten 2 inform me not 2 wait. I m definitely not one of her those suitors n anyway now i know... n i wun do it again. :) Today she went Botanic garden 4 datin', not sure which suitor this time but its a very romantic place 2 go... i m sure she enjoyed it. :) Hmm... where wld i go if i wanna go for datin'? I guess should be Sentosa.... have not been there for quite awhile.

Xue is very diff fr Ming. She msg me tat she didn't go anywhere durin' xmas. She claimed tat she rejected all guys who asked her out on tat day... haha so cool. She jus wanna stay wif her family. Yeah i know Xue, she is a more reserved n "gal-next-door" kinda gal. Unless she really feel like goin' out or some special events, noone is able to date her out. She handmade a christmas card 4 me, sooo... sweet. :)

Xmas celebration

Some pics taken at our xmas celebration/gatherin'. G3 didn't come/join us again. I m beginnin' 2 dislike the arrogant side of her... alittle overwhelmed.


Jiahui with the lovely xmas tree...

The younger ones around... i wasn't inside as i was the one takin' the pic! :P

My little cousin drew this himself without a single help... he's only 4 yrs old... so talented like me (jus kiddin' :P)

We took some pics together...
Ugly faces...

Bloatin' faces...

Dyin' faces...

Kissin' faces...

Smirkin' faces...

xmas eve

Sharon called a couple of times 2day askin' if i'd be comin' 2 her hse party, then maybe goin' 4 countdown together. Flora msg n asked 2 go 4 movie. Hmm... i dun think i'll be joinin' anyone. Countdown? Maybe by myself..!?! Today Chris n ZL are busy wif their performance. Dan is oversea, Chongyan is workin' nite shift, Ming should be datin', Hendrik n the others r celebratin' wif family. Hmm... my lovely piano will keep me accompany. :)

G3's personal msg on msn is "sakit" in indo, which means "sick" in English. Hope she'll get well soon. Wanted to get some xmas gifts for my little cousin, G3, etc... but didn't manage 2 find any suitable ones n it was so crowded in the shoppin' mall today.

Tmr we gonna haf a little celebration at May's place. For our comin' chalet, we'r plannin' on some games, e.g. "treasure hunt" n we gonna make it smthin' like amazin' race, kinda fun! Beach volleyball is another one.

xmas party

Started preparin' since early mornin'. I made most of the balloons... like over 200?!? Was quite fun wif Jiahui, Xiang, Florence, Shereen, Yinghui, Joel, Sebastian, May....etc etc... ard. It wld be better if Kaixian cld join us too.

See May n the rest in the pic? They look hilarious!! :P Dun really haf time 2 take pics, these r the limited ones... sigh!!

We (a few of us) went sushi in the pretty late evenin' after it ended.

Wasn't in a very gd mood today after smthin' happened yesterday. I felt very tired the entire day. Xmas is my favorite day of the yr, i pray tat i can be happy everyday, everyday is like xmas 2 me. :)

Sorry seems 2 be the hardest word

I didn't really go online these two days.... kinda worried abt smthin' tat i dunno if i should be worryin' of. I dun wanna be a 3rd party.... n i somehow sensed/knew smthin' tat i dun wanna ask/talk abt!!! Today i went 2 Orchard alone for no reason.... nothin' 2 shop 4, nothin' 2 buy... i dunno why i was there in the 1st place. The crowd was terrible. Anyway mum activated me 2 go bk abt 5 n help out on the xmas preparation. I had an asinine thought abt celebratin' xmas eve wif someone. However i m quite sure she'll haf a date on tat day, wif her bf/bf-to-be, so if i do tat... i'd be really really... sinful!!! Wun think abt it again. I may jus join Sharon 4 dinner n count down, or by myself.

Heard this song "Sorry seems 2 be the hardest word" by Elton John at whitesand shoppin' mall, quite cool! Supposed 2 meet Ming online when she was bk hm as she suggested but dunno wat happened 2... she seems really busy n we didn't meet in the end, reckon she was out again fr my intuition. Hmmm... i jus hope i did not hinder her relationship life.... n i must not be the one.... sometime i really dunno wat i gotta do. Feelin' so vexed.... think i know wat i should do now!! :(

Friday...

Mark stopped at Singapore again n called me at 7.15am in the mornin'. I wasn't 2 sober when i was babblin' wif him on the phone. :) Mark was one of my best buddies in the flyin' sch some yrs bk. He always wanna intro some flight stewardess 2 me rite now... so nice of him... haha... Frankly speakin' i reckon i'm too borin' 4 them so i asked him not to. :P

I rem those days which i got many of those "disenthrall" (2 free nothin' 2 do) friends. I used 2 haf a Yamaha motorbike to "fly" ard wif them. Ridin' at 150km/hr on the expressway was really like flyin' n was fun but "brainless". :P It was so dangerous n my licenses wld haf been suspected if i got caught. Ppl dun think of the consequences until smthing happened. Thank God i realised it b4 anythin' happened. :) Cherish yr life ppl... its worth more than ya think!

Went Eastcoast wif Xing 4 supper (very light one)... then we hangout there till 1.30am. We chatted abt everythin'...

Countdown!!

Got this info online,
Countdown parties 4 Xmas: Orchard Green & Chjimes.
Countdown parties 4 new year: Orchard Green, Chijmes, Esplanade, Clark Quay, Arts house, Sentosa, Downtown East.
Additional parties 4 Xmas: Orchard hotel (Chris booked it, celebratin' wif the performers, wif buffets n stuffs), May's hse party.

I've no plan at all this yr, kinda feelin' so anti-social n emotional. I reckon i'm too late 2 book for xmas dinner at any restaurant rite now 2. But i think countdown 4 new yr i'd probably be at downtown east. Jus a reminder abt the traffic nitemare durin' xmas/new yr eve... its wise not 2 drive on these days.

Was readin' n studyin' 4 almost the whole day. Went Orchard near the evenin' 2 meet Hendrik 4 Thai dinner. It was rather crowded at Orchard n we crept along the entire street. We took some pics 2. Abt 8pm Hendrik got a call fr his sista tat she was sick n he gotta rush hm. So i was left alone in Orchard... saunterin' all by myself.....

Sullen mood n sorry i m not 3rd party!

Borin' day at uni. Goin' dinner later at Orchard Shangri-la wif parents n Uncle Simon's family.... so gotta shower n change at uni b4 headin' out. The pic below shows my computer at uni, This wallpaper is hilarious rite? :P Yeah i always try all means 2 cheer myself up in this nerve-rackin' n ferocious environment where the warriors r all fightin' intensely!! I never wear watches but i jus realised my drawer has accumulated a nos of them, usually gifts fr birthday, xmas, etc. So friends out there.... rem not 2 get watches for me... i dun wear watches but i do accept diamonds! :)

Dinner was ok... as usual i didn't do much talkin' beside answerin' ques. Ppl like 2 ask me ques...i m always a gd target 4 ppl 2 ask ques in those phenomenal day/dinner/event.... sigh... pls spare me next time if ya read this!

Jus read smthin' online. Depend on gals, some gals like to flirt/out on dates even wif guys who they do not fancy. But WHY? They like the process of bein' loved n pampered n overwhelmed wif gifts/surprises... etc... n free lunch/dinner... why not? Conversely some gals are more reserved n shy, n usually reject most of the guys/dates out there. However this grp is gettin' smaller n smaller... sigh! G3 is a very gd example of gd gal. :) These two days i kinda worried tat i'd be a 3rd party of an almost matched pair... not very sure!! :( Today i finally realised wat Dan mean. I kinda bein' like a 3rd party standin' in bet which hampered them (he n ZL) fr bein' an item. I m very sorry n i really didn't know it. Now i know wat i should do....

Gatsby

Flora said she prefers me with long hair which the one she rem 2 yrs ago when i was jus bk fr Aust. She described the hair style in the Gatsby commercial as cool. Hmm... come on this is Singapore not Aust, so humid here. :)

Recordin'

Recordin' the song ya play is kinda interestin' n gratifyin'. :) Oh my fridge is runnin' out of fruits, gotta go supermarket 2 grab some. I need avocadoes, apples, tomatoes, carrots, banana, ...

Sunday of study!

Slept quite early yesterday, was exhausted fr the day of decor work. I woke up pretty early these two days, like 6am in the mornin'. Kinda readin' n studyin' on some work 4 sch. Received a msg fr Xuehui, she asked why i didn't reply her msg n she added a "HMPF" in the msg which indicates anger i guess. Ha... i dun even rem wat was her last msg abt which made her more furious. R all gals petty in nature? :P:P Jus kiddin'...

Ming chose a shirt 4 her friend ytd, which she averred tat the shirt wld look gd on me 2. She described the shirt vaguely... n i was curious why it wld look gd on me. I explained "I m fat n short n ugly... so i doubt it wld look gd on me". :) Think she agree too...
Another peculiar thing abt Ming is tat she kinda able 2 read my mind, or kinda like knowin' me 4 long. She knows lotsa things abt me which really freaked me out 2. If i ever rob a place like in Ocean's eleven, i guess i'll be arrested the followin' day.... yeah she knows my every move.... haha... :P kiddin'.

Smthin' hilarious which i wanna share. I asked this que a couple of times on some friends which many of them gave an equivalent ans. The que was "Which part of a woman's body tat guys will melt for durin' the meet ups?" Chris, Jaslin, Sharon, Xue, Dan, CY, Brian, ...all gave the same ans as 'boobs'. Ytd Ken gave this ans 2, which was so irrational. I wld rather think it was more reasonable if anyone ans "eyes, nose, lips, arms, legs..." which ya cld really SEE them durin' the meet up or so. Strange... strange ppl... or maybe i m the strange one!?!?!??

Sleepless nite

Woke up at 6am in the mornin', i cld hear the birds singin' at dawn. I was kinda "enervated" somehow... but cldn't sleep serenely though. Today gonna help in the decor work which wld probably take up the entire day. Wanted to go for a run but the hectic day of work jus hampered me fr doin' anythin' else besides nappin'. Little cousin came n he was sooo cute playin' n chattin' wif me... really luv him. JiinShyang brought me a gift today, a simple T-shirt which i really like it. Thank ya so much!

Do ya know life is so vulnerable, we dunno wat will happen tmr, or the day after tmr. Ya dunno who r those tat will still stay wif ya tmr, or rite after tmr. If ya go blind or physically impaired one day, wld yr friends n gf/bf leave ya? Ask yrself this que b4 ya reckon ya luv tat someone, or tat someone luv ya. I've also discussed wif Bryan not long ago, there r ppl (or gals) who can make ya smile everyday n there r ppl (or gals) who will only make ya frown. Think carefully... n i seriously thinkin' abt it 2 lately!!

Fish n Co day

Went Fish n Co with Chongyan today for lunch. I cldn't finish it anyway... the portion was too huge. We tried out the drums at Yamaha after lunch. CY kept askin' me to play the piano there. I dun really like playin' the piano at the shops... kinda like catchin' attention.... gd or bad whichever!

Was wif Chris for awhile... up 2 now we r still not satisfied wif the song, some of the piano keys... the way we mixed them up were kinda insufficient or sound weird. Anyway we didn't haf time 2 solve them out rite now. I m feelin' tired, discouraged, jealous, ....!!!

MingMing is soooo hilarious, thank ya!

Very tired lately, n i m totally worn out fr the editin' of the song day n nite. Chris n i are happy with it now. Had a chat with MingMing online, she's the funniest gal i ever know i guess.... n i cldn't stop laughin' while i was talkin' 2 her. Really gotta thank her for cheerin' me up. :)

Preparin' 4 Xmas

Today little cousin came 2 our place, so i didn't go sch... he's soooo... cute. Mum bought a new blender n an Xmas tree. I can't wait 4 xmas 2 come.

Yesterday spent my afternoon with Florence 4 sushi n movie. I didn't really wanna watch any shows out there but Florence kinda insisted... so we watched "The Golden compass". Both of us didn't really like the show.

Gifts fr Florence

These r the gifts fr Florence. She is such a nice, thoughtful n meticulous person. I really like them, thank ya so much. :) I feel kinda guilty as i've never bought her any gift.

I m really happy tat many of our friends do appreciate our newly composed song "her California dream", e.g., fr the feedbacks of Jaslyn, Xue, Sharon, Angie, May, Zhangli, etc. We (Chris n myself) did put in lotsa time, effort & argument to make this a success. Of cos Chris will be performin', wif some helps fr his team (other members playin' guitar, banjo, mandolin, etc.). Chris is an expert in this field n i can't wait 2 watch this vibrant performance.

Ade was pretty upset tat her boss used vulgarities n raised his voice. I loathe ppl usin' vulgarities too, n its not like a kinda victory once ya haf a louder voice. Pls think carefully b4 ya wanna hurt someone. *peace!

Her California dream

A song composed by Chris and myself.

Xuehui was kinda angry wif me 4 not rememberin' her birthday... she asked "How cld ya forget??!?", i ans "Why not?!??"... hahaa.... :)

Jesse's weddin'

Got an email fr Jesse (my American friend). He's gettin' married in Feb, n the date n venue has been fixed. So envy him!! I wish 2 get married 2. :( He's gettin' married in US Hawaii.
Place: On and around the beach cabana belonging to the "Outrigger Maui Eldorado", Hawaii (Kaanapali area of Maui, Hawaii).
Date and Time: Not disclosin' here.

I wish i cld go, but i m havin' classes!! Sorry Jesse, n congrat. :) Chris n i composed a new song "Her California dream", will be performed by Chris again. Yeah i've quitted. :) We r still amendin' here n there. Chris is gd, lets support him on tat day.

BAD DAY!!!

Went 2 sch 2 get back my laptop today. Still not feelin' gd…. n I'm gettin' tired of sch. Dropped my sup an email, asked when he wld be able to finish readin' my papers, I m tired of fightin' this war alone all by myself, n this isn't the 1st time!! Chatted online wif my French friend in Aust, Tudo. He asked me to quit n come bk to Aust…. i dunno!!

N can ya believe this? Dan came n looked for me today. I dunno wat he wanted, he was kinda eccentric n inebriated today. He accused me of snatchin' away Zhangli, he accused me of betrayin' him… etc etc. Come on, before ya brought in a verdict of smthin', ya should at least gif me a trial, let me haf a chance to know wat was goin' on n explain!!!! I was bewildered n
1st: I dunno wat was goin' on n he didn't bother 2 explain.
2nd: I did not snatch away Zhangli n she is always there for him or anyone.
3rd: Zhangli is always my gd friend n I've no feelin' 4 her. We r mutual friends!!
4th: Everyone n even Zhangli herself knows it well tat I only like G3 although she'll never know n we can never be together. :(
5th: I was the one tat intro Zhangli 2 him durin' the rehearsal, n now he blamed me 4 everythin'....!?!??
6th: I m not in a gd mood lately either, pls dun bother me abt this!! Whoever ya wan jus go 4 it!!!

Dan if ya read this, pls i jus wanna elucidate myself n i m not angry with ya. Zhangli if ya read this, pls dun take it to heart 2, i reckon this is jus a misunderstandin'. I dun wish 2 lose any of ya!

Last day of invigilator duty

Finished my last invigilator duty this mornin'.... so tired!! My laptop is down AGAIN... haf sent for repair!! PC show on Thur (tomorrow) at Expo, i shall go n haf a look. Today happened 2 see this pic of Paris Hilton online. Yes she's so gorgeous. Rem the tv series "The simple life" with Nicole Richie? She is a model, actress, musician n businesswoman... wow... imagine tat? However jus a couple of mths back she was sentenced to over 20 or more days in jail for some alcohol-related reckless drivin' charges, fr wat i rem. Hope she's fine now.

The comin' friday we r havin' a mps dinner or party (not too sure... either one). Nevertheless i'll not be goin' by givin' an excuse tat i wun be able to make it on time. I dun really know why i dun wanna go too, i jus dun feel like goin'. I m not in a really gd mood lately... n i dun wanna pretend to be happy on tat day. I'll miss these ppl n i jus hope they'll haf an enjoyable time. :)

Poor old couple askin' 4 mercy

Yesterday there was an old couple who came 2 Mr Teo 4 help regardin' their son. The husband was visually impaired. However due 2 some rules n regulations they were not allow 2 come...! Vincent even had an argument with them not allowin' them to stay. Nevertheless i was moved by this parental love n decided 2 help them mulishly. I wrote everythin' 4 them n helped 2 type it out personally. I thought i was helpin' them this way n didn't listen to Vincent, in fact i was wrong 2 give them a false hope. Although they weren't allow to see Mr Teo, they insisted to stay behind 2 wait for him to finish readin' the letter n see if he cld see them 4 a min. After waited for 4.5 hrs, Mr Teo refused to see them. I felt very sorry n guilty. The agin' couple was supremely upset n in tears. I know the feelin' of havin' false hopes is dismal n pathetic. I m sorry.... i dunno wat 2 do.... i jus feel distressed n useless 2 by this matter.

Reached sch at 8, my invigilator duty was at 8.30. So early n was soooo bored in the exam hall for 2 hrs+.... walkin' ard...

Hallucination

Today walked pass the luver's bridge... it's always so beautiful to me... maybe jus my hallucination again. Time flies... n i can't turn bk time... though i wish i cld. I miss donuts too.... those i didn't really bear 2 finish. Life is really nothin' but jus memories. Ppl n things jus come n go, the word "eternality" is only used to describe God n not humans.

It was rainin' when i was saunterin' bk hm today n i had an umbrella wif me. But guess wat? I gave it to a lady on my way bk, n i pretended i was jus stayin' at tat blk when she asked. When i told Dan abt this... his 1st response was "she must be gorgeous". Haha... i didn't ans him anyway. But i wanna help her sorely becos of these reasons:
1) She carried quite some stuffs with her n were kinda wet 2.
2) I wasn't in a hurry n was headin' bk hm, didn't really mind gettin' wet.
3) She wasn't too young, quite dangerous when i saw her runnin' fr one shelter 2 another.

Do ya only help/talk 2 someone if he/she is attractive? If so then i'll understand why noone really wanna help/talk 2 me. :( N i told my mum abt this too n she went like "Wat? I dunno wat 2 say abt ya again!!" Yes i've long been denounced as over soft-hearted in the family. My mum said tat b4 - if my sista and I cld be added up n divided by 2 (gettin' average), it wld be perfect. Haha... yes my sista's callousness is kinda cool n lotsa guys cldn't put up wif her 2.

Melancholy mood!!

I rem the last time i was in depression G3 was here (online) to console me. Imagine wat happened to me concurrently at tat time, my laptop went down, followed by my external harddisk the next day. Tat was bad as i wld lose all my impt data. I lost my mobile phone, violin, injured my finger, n even went for operation near my eye (a very minor one but was still quite worried). After talkin' 2 G3, i somehow felt better.... i cldn't believe it too.

These few days i was quite depressed bcos of some sch matters. My progress is ok so far but i m really really tired.... jus no strength to move on n feel like givin' up. I m also quite disappointed with some profs n the politic 2 which i dun wanna explain it here. Talked to Desmond n some friends abt it. We agree tat livin' a simple life wld be better, e.g., workin' 8-5, havin' fun durin' the weekends etc. I've no life... been like at wars since i got bk 2 Singapore abt 2 yrs ago n started sch... i'm worn out.

One of my best friends in Aust Gaetan is visitin' Singapore in Feb 2008. Lookin' forward to it.

Presentation to panel members!

Today i presented to the panel members, 4 profs includin' my own sup. Was kinda overwhelmed by 2 profs' ques.. .n jus as wat my prof explained (to me only) "They were indeed really picky but if there was no comment at all... then my work wld be too perfect n i wld haf grad!" The other 2 profs were really nice guys includin' my sup. Initially i was kinda despondent by some of their ques... but come to think of it, its really gd 2 receive comments which helped me to think a step further. I know there r some directions tat i should n should not look/step into. In fact i should be thankful. They commented tat i was tryin' to do too much things... which was a bad idea. Quite true too...! :( Sigh.... out of sudden feelin' so hopeless.

I rushed bk hm after presentation. My little cousin was waitin' for me at home. He called me twice askin' when i wld be back.... soooo cute!! He called me on the phone"Where r ya now?" n i ans "On the train headin' home". He asked "Which train (he means which station)? Pasir ris?" Then i ans "No, clementi"... hahhaaa... hilarious!! At least smthin' 2 perk me up today! :)

Right here waitin'

I rem i casually played this song on piano durin' a rehearsal n the ppl (mostly my friends) luv it. Yes its one of my favorite songs 2. I attached the lyrics below.

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

fooled by one of my best friends!

Haf ya ever been fooled by a gd friend which made ya feel really downhearted? I dun wish 2 list it here as i jus wanna rem the happy/ phenomenal moments in my life n rebuff those unhappy ones. The person even compared G3 with some of the gals which really pissed me off!! Wat it gotta do wif G3??? I m totally annoyed!!!

And bad things jus happen consecutively. Last nite Jiahui was kinda unhappy wif me. He msged me online at 1am askin' me 2 join him 2 get some xmas stuffs in the mornin' 9.30am. I've prepared 2 spend the day at home doin' my work, n i'm presentin' 2 a panel of ppl next week, etc etc. I explained 2 him n he wasn't 2 happy though. He argued "i dun think a few hrs will affect yr work rite?" Yes i cld jus rush bk asap after gettin' the stuffs... but i m totally not in the mood 2 shop for watever xmas stuffs or goin' anywhere... whereas i m havin' lotsa work on hand. I asked him 2 ask Shereen but she cldn't make it too. He was quite unhappy n logoff wif a "nvm, gdnite". I feel really sorry too n i hope he wun blame me for gd.

bizarre incidences

Few bizarre things happened lately. Few weeks ago (2 or 3 weeks) my mobile phone n my digital camera went on strike concurrently. I tried several routines, on n off, changed sim n memory card etc etc... they jus refused 2 work n finally i renounced. Consequently i sent them both (sounds like sendin' my children) for servicin' in spite of my busy schedules. Last week i received a call fr canon questionin' me wat was wrong with the camera n they cldn't find any fault. I went over 2 collect it n was kinda bewildered too as it was workin' perfectin' fine. Yesterday i received a call fr Dopod abt my mobile phone n was told the same thing again... they cldn't find any fault. I jus cldn't believe it... today i went over n my sms n clock on the phone both were perfectly fine too. I totally cldn't explain wat happened...!!!

Today bumped into Ade on my way home. Was really really happy to see her again!! :) I miss the Ade i used to know.... i dunno wat kinda person is she now... or in fact i didn't really know her tat well.... was jus my hallucination, tat Ade doesn't exist at all.

This friday i wun be able 2 go mps (our Macpherson Primary School :P). Kinda disappointed cos i miss the ppl. Sharon wans me 2 help her do some work. I explained 2 her abt friday (my favorite day of the week...) but she asserted tat it must be this friday evenin' as she wun be available after. Hmmm... ok.... of cos i'll help Sharon, she's a very gd friend of mine. :)

Christmas 1st meetin'

Yesterday we had our 1st xmas meetin'. I was asked 2 be the MC but of cos i refused. I dun haf time 4 all the preparations n stuffs n Jiahui pointed out tat my mardarin cld be a problem, we got May instead. I was also asked to perform playin' the piano while the kids sing... haha. Kinda fun but i've quit piano (as in performin').... some of your should know. I told them i dun mind borrowin' my electric piano (yamaha) as long as the kids dun damage it. :P Eventually Shyang n i r helpin' Vincent on deco work... which is more suitable for me, dun need too much time involved.

sushi day

Met a friend 4 sushi lunch yesterday at Simei. She insisted 2 treat me bk 4 a movie. However i cldn't go as i needed 2 get bk hm 2 work, lotsa work... conf dateline is gettin' nearer. I finished one paper which Prof Sluzek had corrected some mistakes... so efficient of him. I went joggin' 2... not forgettin' 2 do alittle of workout every week.

I m beginnin' 2 feel frustrated in some mutual friends relationship which still cld spread animosity or jealousy between each another... why is tat so when we r all gd friends!!! Why can't he/she get involved... or joinin' us?!?!?? Why do ya think i treated he/she somehow better?!?!??? I really dunno wat to do in this kinda intricate situation when ppl accusin' me of this n tat. I exp tat in uni too when a grp of ppl accusin' me of treatin' Wing (who r detested by some of them) better. In fact, i'm a very simple-minded person towards friends. To me i m ok to mix or talk to anyone even tat person is scorned by everyone. I'll be very disappointed when my gd friends r accusin' me of treatin' somebody better.

Gaetan (one of my best friends in Aust) is comin' Singapore in Feb he said. :) ... really happy!!

friday is over!

It is one day further fr the last time i saw G3.... n friday is over! Didn't get 2 see her yesterday... feelin' very tired. The lady came again yesterday, asked Florence abt me... but Florence was soo nice, she pretended she didn't know who she was referrin' to and assigned her to Shereen. :) But later, Mr Teo told me too she was askin' for me...oh gosh!!

Might be goin' taiwan in dec... hopefully wun clash wif the christmas party.

Dealin' wif our sassy Xue, Sis is back Singapore

Ade read my blog n msg me yesterday sendin' her rgds, so sweet of her... was very touched, thank ya Ade. I dunno which matters she was referrin' to... i've too much catastrophes. Another one today, my mobile phone went on strike. I sent my mobile phone 2 dopod service centre 4 servicin' this mornin' b4 gettin' 2 sch. Soooo.... tirin'. Still dealin' wif our sassy Xue in the evenin'… she wanna get me 2 compensate her by takin' her 2 dinner. I thought it was a reasonably gd deal but it has been 2 consecutive days n she persisted to haf it for another 2-3 days. I m now in this intricate situation tat I dunno how to say no as she is intransigent. Xue i enjoyed hangin' out wif ya but I haf lotsa work on hand rite now… how abt after early dec?

On my way hm, there was this gal who rode a bicycle headin' towards me n apparently I wld gif way. However she caught a glimpse of me n fell rite in front of me, i guess she was frightened by my hideous look :( . I kinda gibed askin' "Are ya ok?" while tryin' 2 help her up. She was kinda embarrassed too n ans "yeah yeah I m ok"… in a chinese accent (think she's a Chinese as fr China). I felt so sorry!

Sista came bk fr US (Alaska) ard 12am midnite. She bought lotsa stuffs as usual... some for mum n me 2. I luv the energy bars she got 4 me... i can save time havin' tat 4 lunch. :) Its very late now... i m turnin' in, gdnite or mornin'...whichever!

See wat sista bought 4 herself!

Feelin' gloomy

I m feelin' gloomy, grave n mournful today. Yes i had been waitin' for friday throughout the week.... lookin' 4ward 2 see her. In noon, mum talked abt my deceased grandma, who doted on me the most out of her many grandchildren. Tat was so long ago n even b4 i went Aust. Mum said she was still talkin' abt me in the hospital. I know i wun be able 2 see her again, not to mention abt hearin' her groovy voice n i've so much 2 tell her. I wanna tell ya i've been workin' hard these yrs n did not let ya down, i wanna tell ya abt the gal i like, i wanna tell ya i miss ya so much....!!! I've not lost her, she stays in my mind. I despise the feelin' of losin' someone but pragmatically it happens... i m tired of life God! I've been like fightin' in the war everyday, its abt ferocity, carnage n intelligent of human, is it worthwhile?!? I m not socratic!!

In the evenin', i thought she wun be there after 8.30...was relatively disappointed, till i saw her. Yes of cos she wasn't as happy 2 see me though.... sigh. I accepted tat long ago... but still cldn't help feelin' sad.... I know she will find tat someone one day like wat Jesse indicated. God... pls take very gd care of her n i wish them felicity in life. It sounds like a renunciation of luv but its not. I did not renounce likin' her, but jus tat i need not possess her to luv her.

I reckon i m still not very sober lately... hmm... yr guys better not askin' me much ques, even simple ones. Xue called n inquired abt bus 2 chalet fr Pasir ris. I replied her bus 403. She had a hard time findin' bus 403 which brought her further away fr the chalet. When she reached nowhere n called me again.... i then rem bus 403 goes to my place.... not chalet. Hahaaaa.... so sorry Xue!! :P

Lookin' 4 private apartment

Yesterday Prof Sluzek passed me his part on pattern detection, to be integrated into my part. He showed me his work n really blew me away. I didn't expect it to be tat useful 4 me. I hope we cld come out wif a very gd paper. I consulted him on some unsolved equations n we took like 2 hrs, together wif Desmond help to solve it. I was soooo... exhausted!! :(

Today went to view a couple of apartments wif mum. She wld like to invest a tad on apartment, rentin' it out or so. I reckon the apartments nowadays r gettin' smaller... hmm... tats a new one launchin' soon, will see how it goes.

Mum asked which location wld i prefer in Singapore n i still prefer smwhere nearby 2 my current place. Reasons? I like the beach, my family stays here, her family stays here 2. Hahaaaa.... more convenient 4 us?!? :)

Proposal on face detection

After several days n nites burnin' several gallons of midnite oil, i've finished implementin' a novel algorithm on face detection. After generatin' the results, i'll start writin' the proposal. I m really tired but conf dateline is gettin' near. Today Sharon called n wanna meet up for dinner, but i jus cldn't make it. I'll catch up wif ya another day. :) I miss old Aunt, should haf stay over at her place tonite, i like chattin' wif her 2. Mum went shoppin' at vivo city wif her today n again i received some accolades (as in words) fr her again! N yesterday 2 of my mum's friends (Auntie Jen & teacher Heng) dropped by our place n both of them alleged havin' me as their godson... haha... when haf i becum so well-liked? Ok gotta get back 2 work, can't spend 2 much time here!

Havin' a bad headache!

Didn't really sleep well lately n still havin' a bad headache. Slept at 4am last nite finishin' up some codes 2 show Prof Yow today. Prof Sluzek who is collaboratin' wif me is finishin' up his part too, meetin' me on Wed. We r at war! I wanna submit a few proposals 2 the top conf this year, which is due in Dec. Last nite was kinda writin' n fixin' some bugs in the code. How to calculate the angle bet 2 vectors? E.g. using dot product:

A.B = A B cosine(theta),
where theta = inverse cosine(dot product/(magnitude of Vector 1 X magnitude of Vector 2)) and A and B are normalized to Unit vectors.

There r so much equations 2 to be added 2 the papers too, i can't afford 2 make any mistake!!

Conversation wif Wing

Had a conversation wif Wing who is currently workin' at Microsoft research centre Beijing. Really miss him alot n dunno when we can meet again. Our conversation is as followed:

Wing~~ says:
She finally met me for lunch
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
wow
Wing~~ says:
I wanted to pay for her, but she insisted to pay me
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
nice gal
Wing~~ says:
that was her birthday, I gave her birthday present
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
wow she was willin' to spend her birthday with ya
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
ya r winning dude
Wing~~ says:
you should try to do the same to G3
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
nah, i know i've no chance
Wing~~ says:
you gave up before any try
Wing~~ says:
you should at least do something before giving up
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
Sigh...long story, anyway i m happy as long as i see her weekly
Wing~~ says:
but you are too cool
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
sigh
Wing~~ says:
how's your study in ntu ?
.......

G3 is the name we gave her 4 some reasons, n everyone (my friends) knows her as G3. :) Cool name huh?

Happy n weary Friday

Slept at 4.30am last nite n woke up ard 8 to sch... was totally wearied today. Still workin' really hard on the papers!! But Friday is my favorite day of the week. I did not get back hm 2 sleep after sch, instead i still met up my mps friends. I m always really blissful 2 see them ppl. I had not seen her 4 abt 2 weeks... n now i m a happy man. :) I dun like Sat n Sun as they r far fr Friday.... haha. We went supper rite after. May be goin' 4 a jog wif Shereen & Joel in the mornin'... but not sure if they cld wake up since we stayed so late last nite.

I met a really bizarre woman today who asked me lotsa irrelevant ques, e.g. Wat's yr current occupation? How much ya earn per mth?? Wat do ya like... n on n on n on!?! I tried several times 2 digress her bk to the subject...n she still cld cut in somehow in bet our conversation. Thank Vincent 4 comin' forward n kinda stopped the conversation as i was tired (maybe not by her but i was jus 2 sleepy n worn out). Ppl were jeerin' at me!! :P I hope she cld get a place asap.

Today Xian dressed up, not sure where she went as she refused 2 tell me. However she affirmed tat she was in a gd mood... i m happy 4 her 2. Sista is flyin' 1st class 2 Alaska (US) tmr. Hope she'll enjoy herself.

Takin' videos & sushi day

Went Chongyan's place 2 take some videos 4 project, then went AMK central 4 sushi lunch. Rushed hm 2 continue workin', lotsa work... i am at WAR!!! I m not really sober lately... pardon me all my dear friends. I still will go tmr... wish i cld see her. I m tired now! :(

Hawker at AMK, Noisy backgrd at CY's place (ideal 4 my video)

. . . . . . . .AMK central . . . . . . . . . . .Sushi lunch . . . . . . .

. . . . . . . . . . . . . .Handsome Chongyan. . . . . . . . . .