beautiful lyrics (An Jing 安靜)

Finally understand the meanin' of the song An Jing 安靜. Dun ya think its jus so beautiful n meaningful?

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
Only the piano accompanies me throughout the day
睡著的大提琴
The sleeping cello
安靜的舊舊的
Quiet and old
我想你已表現的非常明白
I think you've made yourself very clear
我懂我也知道
I know and I'm sure
你沒有捨不得
You don't regret
你說你也會難過我不相信
You say you're upset too, but I never believe
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
You being with me was in the past
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
I hope he'll luv you more than I do
我才會逼自己離開
Only then will I bring myself to leave
你要我說多難堪
You want me to say it, but it's awkward
我根本不想分開
I don't even wanna break up
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
Why must I depend on a smile to tide me through?
我沒有這種天份
I don't have the ability
包容你也接受他
To accept both you and him
不用擔心的太多
Don't worry too much
我會一直好好過
I'll still be fine
你已經遠遠離開
You've already gone far away
我也會慢慢走開
And I'll slowly walk away
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
Why is it that I've to accommodate you even after break up?
我真的沒有天份
I really don't have the ability
安靜的沒這麼快
Staying silent doesn't come so fast
我會學著放棄你
I'll learn to give you up
是因為我太愛你
Because I luv you so much

Wyne (winnie) the pooh

Today i stayed at home to work on my journal. Was chattin' wif Wyne the pooh on msn online, thank Wyne for cheerin' me up wif her great sense of humor. She's a rather nice gal wif lotsa hilarious stuff to share. She denounced herself as fat n short n ugly, is she (look at her pic below)? She mentioned tat she wanna go cosmetic surgery e.g. liposuction which astonished me. Pls..., ya look awesome...no worries. :) I reckon she looks so much like my cousin who is 17-yr old. Of cos Wyne is not 17, but i m not disclosin' her age here...she might kill me!!


Today i received a letter fr Civil Aviation Safety Authority (CASA) n it reminded me to renew my CASA ASIC which is the CASA aviation security identification card. Should i? I dun think so... i m not gonna fly anymore. But i wanna keep the card as a souvenir, smile.. :)

tired of life

Have ya ever thought of endin' yr life? I had never understand why ppl committed suicide. They had basically given up on their life, tired of things like illness, loneliness, financial woes, relationships, losin' luv one, aimless life, etc etc. Ask yrself these ques, do ya haf any goals, aspirations or dreams in life? Are ya enjoyin' yr daily life n not jus flounderin'?? Are ya wif tat someone ya wish 2 spend yr life wif??? If yr ans r 3x"no", ya'd probably feel like standin' outside the balcony, tired n aimless n thinkin' if ya should end yr life. I hope God does exist, who has a plan for everyone.

friend B cheatin' on his gf

Today i had lunch wif B (not convenient to put his full name here in case his gf reads it). He told me how he was cheatin' on his gf while his gf went oversea jus recently, datin' another gal etc etc. I was quite disappointed wif him n he claimed himself to be a bad influence on me. Hmm...i dun reckon so as i know i wun do anythin' 2 hurt someone i luv, i m not a saint but i always clearly know wat i should n should not do. I've given up the many chances (relationship) i cld haf these yrs bcos of jus one gal; the one gal who doesn't even know i like her n i'm waitin' 4 her. I accumulated gifts for her which i never pass 2 her, not even 1. Jesse denounced me as a "coward" and Bryan denounced me as "silly". Yes i know i should move on... i m gettin' tired 2.

Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew

I read the news today abt Minister Mentor Lee KY facing Dr Chee in defamation suit against Singapore Democractic Party (SDP). Sigh...i've no rights to comment on anyone, but as a big supporter of MM Lee, i'll always support him. For those who don't know him, especially those friends oversea, MM Lee was the 1st Prime Minister of Singapore from 1959-1990, and led Singapore to independence. My mum used to tell me tat "without MM Lee, Singapore will not be wat it is today", which is apparently very true if ya think about it. I remember durin' one of my undergrad law classes back in Australia, the lecturer talked about MM Lee too, complimented how well he managed the country and he's well-known for his achievements. MM Lee was a law student at Fitzwilliam College, Cambridge UK, graduated with double starred 1st class honors. With no doubts, he's intelligent.

Yes i haf no idea about other members of parliament or ministers, but MM Lee is the ONE, the one who "built" Singapore, or so-called "Singapore's founding father". He turned a malarial island into a modern financial center with a first world skyline. I just can't see why there are people still goin' against him, overlookin' his contributions n efforts. Please...people, know wat ya are doin' and don't just show your animosity...it isn't cool!

Lazy Sunday

Early mornin' 7am+ i went to Juan's mum funeral wake for the last time. Wats life after death? Haf ya ever asked yrself this que? And if life is a journey, wats the destination? Is there a reincarnation? I hope tat Juan's mum will be in a so-called paradise now.

Met up wif Dr Melvin n Dr Angela for lunch today.... had a gd chat n laugh. I thought i saw Ade wif her bf... but it wasn't her after confirmation. I hope to see her again soon.

In the evenin' supposed to run wif Waikeung n Malcomn. I prepared my bike which i've not been usin' for yrs, n we (Waikeung n i) supposed to meet n cycle there. However i msged him when the time was near, n he replied tat he cldn't make it. I was quite bewildered, why didn't he tell me at all until i asked? Anyway sorry Malcomn.

Life as a train ride

Life is like a train ride, from one stop to another. You get on, you ride and you get off. You get to see many different kinds of people throughout the journal, e.g. different races, genders, ages, charms, etc. At certain stops there are surprises, e.g. a sweet-looking girl comes in. You hope and pray that she could stay a little longer, or even throughout the entire journal with you. Some of these can be translated as moments of joy; while some will result in profound sorrows e.g. accidents and delays. However, you never know who are those that will stay with you throughout the journal, you never know…

Juan's mum wake

Went to Juan's mum wake (funeral parlour in Singapore) yesterday n later today, n maybe tomorrow. I m very jolly to see them all, Juan auntie, Uncle Philip, their children n sister, etc. Juan auntie is my mum's best friend. I like her too...she is very close wif us, n we r like relatives more than jus friends. I hereby send my condolences to them all again.

There are usually altar, incense (joss sticks) around, n maybe some monks for prayers (for buddhist).

Recorded piano song (diy)

I decided to diy a few songs as my friend (xian)'s birthday present for this year. Performed this song in 2006. It's a chinese song pronounced as "An Jing", many of my friends' favorite song n i personally like it too after listenin' to it. Today after hrs n hrs of attempts (as i had not played this song for quite awhile), i finally managed to finish recordin' it on my computer, fr my piano.
1st attempt: Too many mistakes
2nd attempt: Too soft (computer too far away fr my piano)
3rd attempt: Msn friend's sign in sound recorded in (must close msn)
4rd-8th attempt: mistakes n mistakes....
9th attempt: Mum came home n her voice was recorded in
10th attempt: Background still quite noisy (i off the aircon then)
11th attempt: Finally not too bad, but will do 12th attempt one day..., it's still havin' some minor mistakes n alittle cheesy here n there bcos i dun haf the required software/hardware, not like at Chris's house as he has everythin'. However i dun need it to be perfect, i dun wanna make it like a commerical album or smthin'. I m not a pro, i dun haf all the equipments at home n i do make mistakes. :) I jus wanna make it as how i cld, yes purely by myself, n i gonna burn it into a CD after the makin' of another song.

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God has taken bk his omnipotent power fr me

Today i finally declared tat i lost my omnipotent power. For the past mths, my friends (Joel, Bryan, Dan, ...) had testified this power in me to do of cos all that is intrinsically possible . I ran many kms in a rather fast pace without gettin' tired, i carried heavy weights e.g. 80kg benchpress etc etc... without feelin' any aches. On the contrary, last Sun i cldn't really finish my 5km run, n today gym i was kinda slackin' throughout... jus so weak n moody. Maybe i jus lack of the mood to do anythin'. :( Anyway i've lost everythin'...jus everythin'.... shame on me.

I may be goin' away for awhile in Sept, to Las Vegas. I'll miss all my friends here in Singapore. I reckon its not time to reveal to everyone yet. I hope to finish recordin' my piano songs to a CD by then, as a birthday present to Xian in August. I'll have to pass her all the accumulated gifts (birthdays n fr oversea trips) b4 i go.

Family day

Today was more like a family day for me. Together wif my family, we met up Angela n her family 2 jurong pool. Was playin' wif the kids. :)



Joan n didi

Didi wif his chicken bone


Mum saw the pic we took yesterday (wif Xian, Shereen, Xiang, etc.). She commented Xian as havin' a decent look although she reckoned tat she was alittle Auntie-dressed in her outfit. She thought Shereen was quite pretty yesterday.

Loser...

Today we (Anthony, Waikeung, n CC ppl) had a run, abt 5km. These few mths (esp after IPPT), i had not been runnin'. So eventually i cldn't catch up wif them, or in fact i ended up runnin' the wrong track.... n lost everyone. Sigh... my runnin' had been pretty gd... n i was quite confident abt it until today i exp how much stamina i've lost throughout the mths. Yes tats no magic behind runnin', gotta maintain...n i m so tired!!!

Met up wif Xian, Shereen, Andy, Shyang, Jiahui, Sharon, Vincent, Alvin..etc.. they all in the afternoon. Had a gd chat n dinner with them all.

Today i m feelin' this resentment or jealous somehow, somewhere....sigh!! I feel such a loser...i feel so useless...

Chatted wif my gd friend Jasmine online, our msn conversation:
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
Can I ask ya a que?
Callisto says:
orh
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
how wld a guy knows if this gal likes him or not?
Callisto says:
very obvious ma
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
??
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
e.g. she talked to a guy more than me? Or maybe she likes tat guy..not sure
Callisto says:
have to look at other things
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
like wat?
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
she occasionally talks to me
Callisto says:
wat abt msn?
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
once in a blue moon
Callisto says:
hmm then not so
Callisto says:
if a gal likes u she would keep talking to u on msn
ĴįmMΫ™ says:
ic..

Dragonboat n meetin' up wif Jasmine

Met up Malcolm n we went dragonboat trainin' together today. I'm beginnin' 2 like the trainin', 10 mins non-stop rowin' (x3 sets) were kinda cool, but i wasn't tat tired to be frank... can't wait 4 next week 15 mins non-stop rowin'. I reckon we need 2 build up our stamina... well done coach... tats the way!!

Met up my gd friend Jasmine rite after, as she has a chalet in Pasir ris. I didn't see her for like... 2 yrs?!?! She is an amazin' friend... surprisingly she knows alot abt me, n she claimed to be one of my blog's readers!! :) We had so much to catch up... n after tat i walked her bk to her chalet.

New shoppin' at downtown east Pasir ris

Today visited the new shoppin' complex at downtown east Pasir ris. It was kinda huge (5 storeys i think..) with cinema, restaurants etc. I was pretty disappointed tat i didn't see any shops for clothin' e.g., Levis, Adidas, OG, Isetan, etc. Or perhaps its more an entertainment complex.


Had our lunch at New York New York. It was kinda sinful (lotsa meats). I was really really full...


Coke float...(wif ice-cream).

Sinful meal...

dragonboat trainin'

Yesterday was our 1st dragonboat trainin' after the competition last month. Happy to see many of them again. :) We took some pics of the scenery.




Saw this name decoder site on my friend's blog. Quite interestin', haf a try!! :) I randomly put some names...n these r the results:

Get Your Sexy Name

i m listenin'...

I m really tired, tired of my life. Been writin' n writin'... journal n conf..., been findin' inspiration... but jus thing doesn't go the way ya wan it to be. Last nite i reached hm, still so much work on hand n i didn't wanna sleep... was dog-tired though. I was kinda half-asleep while typin' the journal... n i heard someone askin' me to get to bed. The door was locked so definitely not any of my family members but jus my hallucination. A voice tat asked me not to worry, get to bed n continue tomorrow... haha... sounds spooky huh? Anyway i was listenin'.... n did get to sleep. I m quite stressed lately, tryin' to come out wif a gd journal, but jus lack of tat little inspiration to write. I dunno wat i should do!!!!!

This mornin' i went to the supermarket to get a drink. I gave the cashier a 20-cent coin, mistakin' it as a dollar. The cashier was starin' at me speechlessly wif this discriminative look, while i was still standin' there waitin' for my receipt n did not notice abt the 20-cent. After several secs, she was still starin' at me n i began 2 suspect tat i gave her the wrong coin n took another look. Then i apologized to her n gave her the dollar coin. Anyway i was not bein' forgiven... she uttered "They r so diff, ya haf not waken up issit?...etc etc...", sounded like i was jus pretendin' n tryin' to cheat the 80-cent. :( Sigh...

Gd thing comes later, really jolly to meet Xian, Shereen, Hui, Shyang, Alvin, Song..etc..etc... in the evenin'. Xian n Shereen described me as "black". Come on... i m not black... i m jus tanned!! :P Kinda hilarious... these GALS!!! Xian finished her exam today, i m happy 4 her too. :) Anyway i gotta go off early as i gotta work on my journal, n tomorrow is another day of dragonboat... runnin' out of time!!!

Great Singapore Sale is comin'

Singapore is really an awesome place to stay in... i luv the Great Singapore Sale each year which the shoppings close at midnite durin' weekends, sales everywhere ard Singapore... apparently one of the best time 2 shop. Its not like i've loads of stuff 2 buy, but i really like the atmosphere... its so cool!! However, due to this yr's soarin' oil prices n risin' inflation, the crowd may not be as gd as last yr. Come on everyone, do consider visitin' Singapore in this period (23 May to 20 July)!!

Laosi's concert

Laosi came to my place, chatted wif me n mum. He has a live concert in few mths time, tickets fr $15-25 i reckon... if i didn't get him wrong. He asked if i wld like to sing a song together wif him, jus 1 song. Hahaaa... my mum was kinda astounded, n she ans "he wld be ruinin' yr concert..." hahaaahaa. Kinda brutal but quite true... :(

I've jus finished a conf paper. Now i m startin' on a journal... rather busy, so i'll catch up wif ya all soon.

Meetin' up wif Ming

Today is one of my busiest days. I gotta rush for my conf n journal papers, i gotta meet up wif Ming in the mornin' for swimmin' n lunch, i gotta meet the dragonboat team for steamboat etc etc. However due to the insufficient time to inform the team, the steamboat has been cancelled. I miss these guys!!

Some pics of me n Ming. Ming is one of my very best friends, she can make me laugh all the time.... she has a great sense of humor, she's friendly, sporty n ferocious (gd partner choice 4 amazin' race)!! Cool huh?!?