Another gloomy day!

As usual today i didn't feel like doin' anythin', goin' anywhere. I slept... woke up, n got back 2 sleep... jus didn't wanna wake up... till 2pm. In bet i received a call fr Yolanda, and my best friend Gaetan who called me fr Australia. Was soo... touched, i miss him sooo much. I told him abt my crisis... etc... felt like cryin' out to him. He encouraged me to come back to Aust too, Tudo will be going back too from Paris. Gaetan will be coming over Singapore again for 1 or 2 days in July. Went to airport 2 pick up Yi who was flying back fr Shanghai. So happy 2 see her again.

Today is the first day she never give me any msg or call. Her profile is set to single. I dun feel sad at all, i dunno why... this is not luv i guess. I'm not the one ya reckon ya can spend the rest of yr life with... n i think ya r not the one too. :) I decided not 2 think abt it now till i get better. Sharon, thanks for yr invitation. We r not coming 2 yr place tomorrow, i m not feeling well. Thank ya alot, ya take care too.

Addin' more on my depression

I dunno wat to say... everythin' i said cld caused myself into deeper interrogation. I was already in depression these days n now i got even worse... why can't she treat me better... cheering me up for this crisis period? :( I tried hard to like n be with her, n tried to see her each day, until today we met... but she was jus so emotional. Yesterday she was a kind n today she's diff.

Saw Sharon online tonite n i was jus seekin' advise fr her. She believes tat she doesn't trust n luv me tat much as i thought. N the next moment Cherry was suspecting tats something between me and Sharon. The "trust" word tat Sharon mentioned jus striked my mind immediately. I m tired...

Wanted to go up to her hostel to look for her today but her Arcade guys were in her room playing games since noon. Went up for awhile at 9 when her Arcade friends went out for dinner break. Reached home at 11.30.

Thanks Sharon

Today i woke up, there were another 3 emails received from Sharon... i was sooooo touched, thank ya so much Sharon 4 doing all these for me. Yesterday morning, Sharon told me she wanna cheer me up by sending me a joke at least every 3 hours. I thought she was kidding, but even in the middle of the night (1.56, 4.08, 7.35) i received emails from her. The most amazing thing she did was among all the jokes she sent, there were two tat she recorded it herself (with her own voice). It wasn't really clear as i cldn't figure out wat she was talkin' abt sometimes, but i still smile... was so touched... almost in tears. :) Abt the weekend beach hangout, i m not sure yet as it rains everyday, n i jus feel like staying indoor n sleep... dun wish 2 go anywhere outdoor. Lets see :) Ya take care 2 Sharon.

Gonna rush to sch soon. Wing is back Singapore n i supposed to meet him yesterday in sch but i didn't wanna step out of the hse. Ok i guess i gotta go sch to meet him today.

Yesterday n Today

Blog's site was down for the whole day... finally now its up. Went 2 sch yesterday, then met up with Cherry at the bus stop n acc her 2 immigration 2 do some stuffs. We went bugis 2 catch a movie. I wasn't in a mood 2 shop or watch movie n i hope i didn't bore her. Smthin' interestin happened, there was this man i guess a wedding planner, he approached us n asked when we would wanna get married. :) Tat made me laughed... I sent Cherry back to Boonlay n then returned 2 Pasir Ris. When she left, i was down again... :) Was touched when she ran back on the train 2 look 4 me.

Wing is back to Singapore today n supposed to meet him. I dun feel like goin' anywhere lately so i didn't go to sch today to meet him. A friend asked me out in the afternoon but i didn't go... I slept the whole day, lyin' on the bed, doin' nothin', i felt soooo... tired. I still wanna sleep... dun wanna wake up!!! Thanks to those who msg or called me 2 comfort me... i m very touched. Thank ya very much (Desmond, Wing, Jessica, Alex, Hendrik, Cherry, Sharon etc.)! Sharon thank ya for doin' so much, i greatly appreciate it, cya soon! :)

Depression!!

Didn't do quite well for my last Sem, got a warning by sch n sup. Tat means next Sem i gotta do better if not i gotta go. Rem my transcripts were only filled with Distinction n HD....wondering why i can't get an overall B+ now. I lost my confidence, i lost myself... n i dun wanna get more stressed up next Sem. My mum encouraged me to quit n go back Aust... wat should i do?!?

Wanted so much to talk to someone, but jus noone. Cherry wasn't free, was meetin' her friend for movies. She enjoyed it so much... her blog entry is all about him, n she wishes to go Paris with him too. I m not blaming her at all but i jus naturally got unhappy, n added into my depression. Or am i supposed to be happy? I jus wan her to be happy anyway. She got more than 10 suitors.... haha... i got mine too. Nvm will jus try harder with her n see how it goes... maybe we r not meant for each other... i still dun think i really like her.

Sup supposed to meet me at 1, but he dropped me an email at 12.54 to change the time. I was already outside his office waiting till 1.25 n i came up n saw his email. Wat a bad day!!

Try to cheer her up!

Yesterday i was still angry with her, today i msg n called her trying to pacify her. This mornin' i sat at my piano again n started practisin' the chn song i learned for her. The last time i played the song was terrible, mostly out of keys n so. Only today i dare to call her n played the song for her. I was jus tryin' to cheer her up.

Yeah she was at fault, but I was in the wrong too for saying words like "i give up" n etc. due to anger. I hope she realised her mistake too. I m sorry. Maybe we should jus be friends. :)

My cousin came to my place today, which i gotta babysit him alone in the afternoon. His mum needs to do some work n asked me for help. He's sooo adorable. I wanna buy him a xmas's present later. :)

Missing her?

Though i m still angry with her, i can't help to miss her alittle. I rem the pretty face of her when she was combing her hair in the dim room yesterday... haha... I rem everything but tat doesn't mean i like her. Missin' someone doesn't mean ya like her. I think i miss her as a friend only. But i really can't stand the way she is, the fierce, sassy n selfish char of her's. I was soo pissed off n i walked off yesterday morning. She didn't bother anyway. I got her sms today n we were still arguing. N why must i always be the one to give in to her everytime?!?! She changed the time to meet yesterday n decided to acc her friend fr 3pm+ to 8pm+. N i gotta wait for her for almost 3 hrs n i still gotta say sorry n took it as my fault. She slept whenever she wanted on our xmas eve despite watever plan we/I had made. She's those tat will jus do watever she wans... n never cares abt anyone's feeling. Since our first day together till now, i still doubt she really luv me. She isn't sure herself too. Yes i know i dun like her but i did try to like her.

Waken up fr my dream

Today we (Cherry n I) exchanged xmas's gift. She got me a self-made keychain with my name on it. I quite like it. I had dinner with her n i was starving...actually my lunch.

I casually asked her today if she luv me. She didn't ans me again as she wasn't sure. Why is it so difficult to say ya luv someone if ya do luv him, unless ya dun? Actually I dun really care n I gotta accept this fact n move on. :) Anyway i dun think i like her too... dun really haf tat feel. I've a wonderful holiday being with her. Sch starts really soon n its time for me to wake up n work hard. I know Cherry still miss her ex-bf. I hope they can get back together soon, the couple tat really in luv with each other. I don't blame her... she's not the one for me too i guess. :)

Wat haf i done today...

As usual i spent most of my time dreaming (abt someone? Or smthin' else??), which has taken up 70% of my time. Another 10% on transport and meals, n the other 20% doing something useful. Cherry msged me tat she was missing me alot today... tat brightened up my day alittle... haha. :) I dun mean i like her doin' tat, but jus find it funny n happy tat someone actually miss me. :P

Date with Cherry

Met up with Cherry in the afternoon. I was an hr early but i didn't wanna wake her up so i waited for an hr. I enjoyed my day with her... we went shopping around aimlessly, walked the entire shoppin' mall till she felt tired... haha (now ya know how weak she is :P). I sent her back to hostel and she somehow cried bcos she was thinking of her ex-bf. I felt awkward too tat she cried.... missing somebody else. I hope she enjoyed her day too with me. I still find her weird!! :P

Had alittle flu n fever i reckon, my eyes were red too... i didn't bother abt it when i was with Cherry, until i was at the bus-stop back home... i could feel it. N i was soooo... tired tat i fell a sleep not long after back home.

Busy day with my swollen eye

Today i woke up with a swollen eye. It looked sooo... appalling that i didn't wanna step out of the door. :P But we had an appointment with the lawyer so i gotta go, with my shades on. It's still pretty bad now... tomorrow i m meeting Cherry, hope I'll not freak her out with the ugly lookin' me!!! :( Went Uncle Cafu's place after n we had dinner together, home at 8.30pm.

I bought a Xmas's gift for Cherry today, not sure if i should pass her tomorrow or on xmas... but its a little heavy. Today i got a virtual kiss from Cherry (sms).... weird!!! I dunno if i really like her but i m happy tat i've someone as a companion in uni...we r jus tryin'. Haha..

Today Wed 20th Dec

Today gonna meet family's lawyer with mum in the late morning to do some stuffs, followed by meeting Uncle Cafu and family etc. for dinner. I haven't got a xmas present for Cherry yet, so lazy. :) N Cherry if ya read this, ya dun have to buy anything for me. :P

The pic on the right shows Cherry dancing with her mates. :) Cherry in pink...guess the venue should be NTU as usual. :)

Got myself a wife? WEIRD

Today supposed to meet Cherry but i didn't turn up bcos of some misunderstandings. I m sorry anyway... long story. And she is sick now... most probably bcos of the bad weather lately. She took some medicines n i hope she'll get better later. I've flu too.. .hope we both will get well before xmas eve.

We planned to celebrate xmas together since like weeks ago. Today i asked if she wld like to celebrate with her friends instead. I was worried tat she wld get bored celebrating with me alone. She thought i got other plan in mind or celebrating with someone else etc. Then we came out with a plan having a camp. :P So fun, thank ya Cherry.

I felt alittle weird when she somehow admitted she was my wife jus now... hmm... i dun think i really like her... dun haf the feel, but i can try perhaps, she's very nice to me.

Gd evenin'

Met Mr Cipolla's daughter last nite. Was blown away by her everything. She was gorgeous, elegant and had this intellectual and polite way of speaking. Gals like her esp at her age (20 yrs old) are usually arrogant and sassy but she jus minus off these. We chatted like most of the time since her dad was busy with his friends around. I intro her to some ppl around. She can play violin too....she really reminds me of an Aussie friend. I thought my french friend (yeah ya...Gaetan) wld really like her too and I shall intro her to him one of these days. :P

As usual ppl like to target me for questions...almost every occasion. "Wow...how did ya get yr scholarship?....", "Why did ya choose Singapore?....", "Where r ya goin' next...?!!"...., "Any girlfriend?"...etc etc etc... I've ans these 92833292303582355822129 times!!! :)

Sunday @uni

Slept at 2am+ in the morning, woke up at 6 to pick up the Empress (mummy) fr the Airport. :P Reached uni very early...9am+ on a beautiful Sunday. :) Sleepy me....zzz...

Been in uni throughout my weekend, wun wanna come back anymore fr tomorrow till next week since my sup will not around.

Goin' for welcome party tonite, haf 2 dress formally...!!!! Who r the guests??!!??? Hope they r not too dull... or keep askin' me dumb ques!!! I loathe to be questioned like being interrogated.

Delusional disorder

This mornin' i woke up, i saw a long golden strand of hair besides me tat doesn't belong to me. :P Where did it come fr?!? Haha...psychiatrists name this as delusional disorder...ha. Jus kiddin' i'm not worried.

Cherry Cha Cha ice-cream, n she is weird

Today rushed out to do some work, and had quick dinner at Sakae sushi. Ya know wat? I saw Cherry on display... "Cherry Cha Cha ice-cream"...i cldn't stop laughin' at it. :) Not sure if she's tat sweet though... hahahaa. I find her alittle weird. I dun really know her for long, she's like keep askin' me to go oversea holiday with her, she asked "Can ya bring yr passport tmr?" Of cos i wun bring my passport n go holiday with her alone... hahaaa. I m not those guys man!!!!

Rainy day

Went Simei to pick up Cherry's dance costume n supposed to meet her for lunch, but she had with her Senior instead. :( And i cldn't see how she looks like in tat costume. The koala in the pic was a little gift i got her fr Aust... she likes it. It has been rainin' since early afternoon....bad day!!



Back 2 lab, discussed with Wing wat i could do for ICIP conf. He's such a nice guy. He's rushin' for some work b4 he goes back 2 Hongkong. And he's stayin' in the lab tonite n not gonna go back home.... hardworker!!

Meetin' wif Cherry

Met Cherry for lunch today at NTU hall 9. I was early n she was late. She cld finish a huge bowl of noodles tat really freaked me out. I wondered wat did she do 2 maintain her figure. I passed her the gift i bought fr Aust. Not sure if she likes it, she's a smilin' buddha. :) I find her weird as she kept askin' to go holiday with me. Hmm...i dun like goin' holiday with a gal unless i really like her. Or is this the chinese (as china)'s culture? Hahahaaa...

Back 2 lab, did some work. Still thinkin' how to solve some stuffs. Got an email fr Sup tat i need to help out on some conf (MMM conf 2007) event in NTU. Student helper for 4 days in Jan. It seems fun as there's a cruise dinner after. When is the last time i went to a cruise dinner? I guess 5 yrs ago. :)

Gd day MatE :P

This mornin' chatted with Cat for awhile. She's in US, n glad tat she's doin' fine there. Really miss chattin' with her. She did read my blog n still know wat was goin' on here n there with me, wat an awesome friend.

Chatted with Ade in the afternoon, didn't go anywhere today...had worn out after my trip 2 Aust. She's still the same... crazy. She uttered "I m a heart breaker n sorry if i broke yr heart...etc etc." Tat sounds crazy isn't it? :) I'm quite upset, the way she is now. Or maybe she has always been like this, jus tat i didn't see the true side of her all the while. I used to like her (tat was b4 she went to Thai). She didn't break my heart, but its wat she is now tat really break my heart into pieces. But but...no matter wat, i still hope tat she'll get better one of these days, not for me, is for God n herself. :) Be gd k Ade??

Back fr Australia

Jus back fr Perth. Chatted with Cherry online for a while. We r planning to go Langkawi in Dec, if we can get the airfares. :) She is totally into it..."lets check this out on Sunday", she said. She has this inter-sch Latin dance competition the coming weekend, sounds fun, maybe i shall go n give her some supports...lets see. Brought gifts fr Aust for most of my friends back here in Singapore, can't wait to give them out...then my job is pretty much done. :P So tired...gettin' to sleepz...

Preparing 4 Aust trip

Ok flyin' to Aust tomorrow, gonna get prepared!!

Fun weekend

Today went lunch with Anna, back to Expo again. We went IT show (yes i went yesterday), and she wanna get a digital camera. Anna is such a nice gal. I was queuing for our lunch n she msged me "do ya wanna swap? My turn to queue." She's very polite and kind-hearted. Then went Orchard to meet one of my best friends in sch, Huangyi. Desmond and Wing cldn't make it to join us bcos of the CVPR conf paper. We went shopping and steamboat buffet! Hadn't been shoppin' like this 4 ages...i luv Christmas in Singapore, its jus so beautiful everywhere.










Talked online with Ade jus now. She claimed tat she may get dismissed from her job bcos her lady boss feels tat she's a threat to her. I reckon tat's really really childish. N i told her if she was doin' her part n discipline enough, n not doin' smthin' 'extra', i dun reckon tat wld happen. Sometimes i think Ade is a little weird. She likes to do thin' differently... n she's ravin' over some idols, some cultural stuffs...etc etc. :) Be gd Ade.

Final paper...hooray!! Motor&IT show trip

I turned in at 5am last nite 2 finish up my final exam revision, n woke up at 6.45am this mornin', rushed 2 sch 4 my last paper at 9.30am. Pretty happy with the paper, no complaint...but was dead tired after tat. :P Didn't go home, went IT show at Expo with Chongyan. There was a motor show there 2.




We went Tampine for dinner, wat else but sushi again, our favorite. :P Went to the one which Ade n I went months ago. It reminded me of Ade.


Went for haircut after...dead tired...gettin' 2 bed soon...!!!!